Rich Girl Not So Rich

Rich Girl, Not So Rich Part 5

Day 5
I was awake for most of last night thinking. I heard my mom and dad come home really late.
When they got inside they were arguing about something. Dad ended up sleeping on the sofa last night and mom was upstairs in their bed. It hurts me when they argue.
I've been feeling more and more depressed as time goes on and the thoughts of cutting are still present in my mind. One half of me is telling me to cut and release the pain but the other half of me is telling me that it's a stupid idea and not to do it. I don't know what to do.
Mom called me down stairs this morning and told me I was going to be staying with my Aunt Donna and my cousin Stephanie for about a week so they can sort somethings out. What do they mean by "somethings"? What if I come home and my parents are divorced? Okay, now im scaring myself.
I had to pack a few bags and have them ready for tomorrow because I'm getting picked up early in the morning.
I love my Aunt Donna don't get me wrong, I just don't want to leave my parents incase something does happen. I don't like surprises, especially the bad kind.
I was in the bathroom looking for my make up case when I found an old razor in the bottom draw. I took it out of the draw and put it inside my make up case once I found it. I don't know whether I will use it or not but I have it with me if I need it. I'll only use it if things get really bad. I really hope they don't.
I've been listening to a lot of new bands recently. My favourite so far is, Pierce the Veil and my favourite songs are Hold on till May and King for A Day. I also really love, Sleeping with Sirens. Kellin Quinn is so cute but I have to admit that when I first saw him I thought he was a girl. Oops.
Right now, I feel like music is the only thing I have as a friend. I know that might sound weird and stupid but it's the truth. Music will always be there for me.