Waking into class I saw the same face I see the moment I wake up to the moment I fall to sleep. To the short blonde hair up in a high ponytail, to the the same pink patterned bag with the annoying ass Keychains, the ones that make the worst noise when she walked, to the same old boring school uniform everyone (well most of us) wears, to her crystal green eyes I get lost in. She smiled at me and i smiled back as I placed my bad on the side of the science lab beside hers, the one with the annoying ass Keychains. I sat down on the stool next to her the work was handed to us and we copy things down from the board. I moved my hair so it isn't behind my ears so she couldn't see the tears in my eyes. See she doesn't feel what I feel. Ever since I told her I had feelings for her she brushed it off. She kept telling me things wouldn't be awkward between us. They are but she doesn't see it, only I do. Why can't she see the pain I'm in? I see a few splashes of the salty liquid falling from my eyes fall onto my paper, she still couldn't see. The beautiful girl can't see the despair I am in. My head is forcing me to think of everything we've ever done together, all the happy (and sad) times we've had. More tears fall. And it's doesn't help that she's singing Amnesia by 5 Seconds of Summer which is the main song for making me cry. By then I couldn't keep it in as I let out a sob and my whole body began to shake. This, unfortunately, made her look at me. 'Sh*t!' Was what I though. I hate crying unless I'm alone but some times I can't hold it in. "Hey what's up?" She asked in her sweet sounding voice. I started to shake more violently by then. "Lucy what's wrong?" Of all the times why did I have to cry now? She rested her arm on my shoulder and asked the same question again and again, each time dripping with more and more concern. I let out another sob, as I did she put her arm fully around both my shoulders and pulled me closer to her, making me rest my head on her chest as she stroked my hair and I had let out a small whimper. After a few moments I had calmed down. "Now tell me what's wrong" she said, more of a demand, not a question. Nothing. I said nothing. Why didn't I tell her?! She could help!! I'm so fucking blind!! WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME?! WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS?!
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The bell had rung. That class went by fast. We all stood up, packed up and walked out. I was about to join them until I felt arms wrap around me from behind. It was her.
"I'm always here mate" was what she had said before letting go of me and walking out of the room. I heard not of the loud yells from the corridor, but all I heard was the horrible noise coming from her bag. Those annoying ass keychains...
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Okey guys so this was a true story that happened to me a few days ago. I just felt the need to let it all out because it's been eating me up and what better way to get it out by boring you all with my sad excuse of a life. I just feel so lost guys and I need help. I talked to her just a while ago and.....I swear it all just comes back. Please help me I don't know what to. Thank god for the summer holidays....
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