Phil's POV
As soon as we crossed the threshold of the apartment, Dan collapsed onto the ground. Oh no. That meant he was having another existential crisis. I closed the door and sat down beside him, stroking his hair.
"You okay Dan?" I said. "You wanna talk about it?"
"Death is inevitable. Why do we exist if we're just born to die? What is existence?" He mumbled through the carpet that his face was smushed into.
I laid down on the floor next to him. "We exist to be happy. To laugh and smile." I leaned close towards his face. "To love." My face was inches from his now. Removing his face from the carpet, he looked at me. "And to be loved." We were so close I could see that there were infinite shades of brown in his eyes. "And you are." I rested my forehead against his.
"But why? Why am I loved? Why should I be?" His breaths became quicker and he began to start crying. "All I do is almost get myself killed and then make #relatable funny stuff about it. Why would anyone love me?" Dan's face was becoming wet with tears.
"Dan!" I cried, wrapping my arms around him. "I love you, because your laugh is like music. Because of the cute way your hair curls when it gets wet. Because of that little sad dimple you get when you smile. The way your eyes light up when you're happy. How loving you are. How you can keep moving forward even when things are bad." I wiped the tears from his face. "I love you for all those 3am conversations and 3 hour breakfasts back in Manchester. And for you staying with me when I was scared and you were brave. For all the little things. Because you're you. And I love you"
I kissed him on the lips. At first, he was about to pull back, but he stopped himself and gave into it. Tears were still streaming down his face, making both our faces wet. The longer it went, the less he cried, until there were no more tears or sadness left. Only passion. After either a million years or five seconds, we broke apart and just lay there, staring into each other's eyes.
After a few minutes of silence, Dan spoke. "I love you too, Phil"
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My Guardian Angel Bean
FanfictionDan is always getting into near death experiences. Phil is his boyfriend who he lives with. Phil is an angel. He is Dan's guardian angel. But Dan doesn't know that...
