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I was cut off by Joe pulling my lips onto his.

20th August 2015

Penelope Marie Burr

I was shocked at first, not registering in my brain what was going on. He started to break away and I leant in, kissing him back. His lips felt soft against mine, and his fingertips burned against my skin. They sat on my hips, rubbing circles against my hip bones. Mine were slung around his neck, trying to pull him closer.

I pulled away from him and rested my forehead against his, waiting for my breathing to calm.

"Wow," He breathed out, smiling at me. I grinned back at him, pulling away finally.

"That so shouldn't have happened," I laughed lightly, still feeling giddy from the kiss. My lips tingled slightly, wanting more. I kissed him again softly on the lips.

"Or that," He smirked at me.

I changed my mood, turning the conversation serious.

"So, what are we going to do?" I asked, concerned about the kiss that just happened and where the relationship was heading.

"I like you, Penny, and I don't want to miss my opportunity to be able to kiss you or call you mine."

"But we can't do this with Tanya breathing down our backs all the time."

"I don't want to have to sit there and know that there's something between us, but also know I didn't do anything about it."

"Then we're back to the original question, what are we going to do?"

"Well, I don't want to go behind Tanya's back but I don't want to have to sit and pretend I don't like you," I sighed quietly, torn between my feelings for Joe and my loyalty for Tanya.

"That basically rules out everything, Joe," I laughed a humorless laugh.

"Well, do you have any better ideas, Penelope?"

"Friends who kiss sometimes?" I offered my idea before continuing to explain myself. "That way we're not actually together so we're not hiding anything, technically."

"Yeah, I guess that would work," He smiled softly before kissing me again, softer this time, our lips moving together in perfect sync.

I head back to the others before Joe, trying not to make anything too obvious.

"Hey Penny, where's Joe?" Zoë asked. I shrugged my shoulders lightly, acting like I hadn't seen him.

"I dunno, did he come my way? I didn't see him?" He arrived just after I finished talking, and headed towards Zoë.

"Nice walk, Joseph?" She asked. He nodded in agreement, not saying anything about what happened but winked quickly at me.

Jim, Tanya and I headed back to Tanya and Jim's house soon after. I pulled Tanya into my room.

"Tanya, can I talk to you?" She nodded, sitting down on my bed. I took a deep breath in before talking. "I wanna know why you care so much about Joe? And don't just say it's because I'm your little cousin and he's too old for me, because I know it isn't just that," I didn't, really, but I wanted a full story on why Tanya didn't want Joe and I together.

"Okay, I guess it is a little more than that..." She paused and I motioned for her to carry on. "I had a boyfriend when I was 15, before I met Jim, and he was four years older than me. I didn't have someone older to guide away from him, although all my friends knew he was bad news. But I ignored them because I was in love. Or I thought I was..."

"So, you had a boyfriend who was older than you? What was the problem?"

"He was a dickhead. I'm not saying Joe is but the age difference is even more. This guy broke my heart without a second thought. We had been together for eight months and I thought he'd loved me back, until I walked in on him making out with my 'best friend'. And that was it. He didn't fight to get me back. It took me months to get over him, months. And I don't want that to happen to you," Suddenly, I felt guilty about Joe and I.

"I wish you had explained this to me at first..."

"It wouldn't have made much of a difference, would it though?"

"No, but I might have understood your reasons more if I knew that."

"Yeah, I guess... I have to go now, sort some things out for the wedding? Have you sent off the invites?"

"Yep, sent them off last week," I smiled at her as she walked out, before picking up my phone and texting Joe.

Penelope: so I talked to Tanya, I didn't tell her about us but I talked to her about why she didn't want us together

Joe: oh yeah, was there a reason?

Penelope: apparently she had a boyfriend when she was 15 and he was 4 years old and he broke her heart, kissed her best friend

Joe: wow...

Penelope: yeah, so as long as you don't do that then we'll be fine ;)

Joe: don't worry, I wouldn't kiss your best friend, I don't even know your best friend

Penelope: as long as you don't kiss Tanya we'll be fine x

Joe: I wouldn't do that anyway but thanks for the warning :P x

I chuckled, locking my phone and turning on my laptop. I spent the rest of the afternoon watching The Vampire Diaries and texting Joe.