just a dream ; seokjin

traveled back

so i decided to leave. i walked down the dark streets of the night, and found the small little lamppost in front of your favorite cafe. where you broke up with me. i still can't push it through my head and let go. it's so difficult. trying to let someone you really love go.

maybe this was just a bad nightmare. 

i stood outside, in the alley. i felt so down, and seeing what was next made me fall deeper. i saw you. walking with jimin. i understand you have moved on, but i never would have figured jimin. i can't take it, knowing that you're with somebody else. i just want to be yours again.

these memories of us clouded my head. the new dance movements not sticking with me. "jin, you're okay with this right?" of course i would answer him yes. i want you happy; isn't that what love is? "of course jimin, why wouldn't i be?" i flashed my fake smile. 

i should have gotten that ring i was thinking about. because now you're gone. what'll i do without you? i miss my jagiya. you were my entire world. but now you're gone. and i know thinking that you and jimin isn't good isn't right. but i can't help it. i can't picture you with anyone but me.

the only thing in my head was you. and was that a problem? all these memories are now fading.

memories crumble like dried flower petals.