just a dream ; seokjin

alone

i hope you know, i hope you know that i'm always thinking of you. and wondering why you broke up with me. although i knew the answer. i wasn't good enough. maybe you found someone better. no actually; you did.

i know i probably never gave you flowers or kisses or held your hand. i wasn't that great of a boyfriend. and now i guess i learned my lesson in dating 101, because you've left. 

i sat on the stool, by the bar. i had a good expression at first, but it's fading away. i took away my happy mask. at the only place acceptable. you were so great, and so lovable. so easy to give hugs, and ruffle your hair, easily say "saranghae!" to you. but it wasn't enough. not enough for someone so great. why didn't i realize you were so higher than me? i didn't treat you with enough respect.

i've tried calling you and jimin, but they say that you couldn't pick up. are you ignoring me? as your happiness with jimin continues, mine is fading away. but i love you, and i think that love means that as long as the other person is happy, you are satisfied. so why do i earn for you, want you to be mine again? 

however, you've moved on. even found somebody. so why can't i? i can't accept i was wrong. i have loved somebody before. and now, you're gone. i've passed dating 101, but maybe the hard way.