Love Is Blind

The truth is not an option

I had to do something about them being together. I would have to make up a lie. Maybe i can say Robert cheated on Jamie or just tell the truth. Truth is not an option. I wish i could walk up to Jamie and tell her Robert cheated on her. I had felt the words bubbling up in my mouth. I just couldn't be such a heartless person. Only if he knew.....I was the one. Jamie came up to me and said "Robert and I are going out so i cant come to your house". My heart and soul was given to him but what i get back is a broken heart. Could i keep this secret any longer? "I have to tell you something" I stuttered. "What" said Jamie. " That uh i like your hair''. I had just made a fool of myself. She broke my heart why cant i break hers? Maybe i cant stoop down to her level maybe i have a bigger heart then she does. Look at me I set her up with Robert and now i cant thinking about Robert. Maybe this was all my fault. I fell in love with him.Why would I just give such an opportunity away. This was all my fault. Why did i do this to myself?Love doesnt come very often when Robert came around my whole world changed. I love Robert i would do anything for Robert......But would she? When i got home i kept wondering what they were doing. I wish i was her. She has it all. Only if she knew how i felt. Only if HE knew how i felt.I kept thinking about all the possible opportunitys i had to be with him. I blew them all. How could i do this to myself? My one and only love with my one and only true friend. I made a lot of desicions that night mostly about what i would say the next day. I have decided to hold my peace. I will tell Robert i like him....as a friend. My heart will never be at rest until he is mine.