MY SPAZZMATE

CHAPTER 42 - CONFESSIONS

Jin oppa kept his promise. He really did not tell them my whereabouts.

I told him that I'm not yet ready to face Taehyung and talk about it with him, and gladly he respected my decision.

So now, I've been hanging out with him. He always comes here at ahjumma's place, where I'm still staying at, whenever he has time then we just chill inside. He tells me how his day went and so did I even if nothing exciting really happened to me. It's just for the sake of the conversation to keep going.

Sometimes, we bake pastries I never heard of before. I just follow his instructions on how to do this and that. Then we eat it afterwards, giving some to ahjumma.

For the record, I like Jin oppa's company. He's not that hard and awkward to talk to. I feel like I can tell him everything without leaving a single detail behind.

"What do you want to do today? Wanna go out?"

"Nah. We rather not. They might see us together."

"Don't you get tired of staying here?"

"No? Why would I? Ahjumma is always there to talk to me. And you... you're always visiting me, us, here. That's enough for me."

"Aww... don't say those kind of things. I might fall in love with you again."

I chuckled. "That's fine with me though. I mean, who wouldn't fall for a Kim Seokjin? He's boyfriend material."

"I know. I'm handsome, I can cook, and I'm handsome."

"Yeah. Yeah.. too much handsomeness can kill you."

"Yeah.. can kill many girls because they can't have me. Except for you."

"Too cheesy." I teased.

His face suddenly became serious. "You already do know that I have some feelings for you... but, don't use it as a way to divert your mind from him. Please don't. We already talked about this."

"Oppa.. I'm not. I swear. I'm just telling the truth. Through the moments you've been here with me, it's not that hard not to notice your intentions. You've been so kind and respectful to me always that I don't know why I didn't notice it sooner so that I should've fallen for you instead of him."

He sighed. "Thank you. I told you I'll always be here for you."

"Aish~ too serious. I hate it." Then I pinched his cheeks and he whined in pain.

"Ah. Yah! Jimae-ah... let go. It hurts now."

"Nah... you look more handsome in this, oppa."

"No I'm not! You're ruining my beautiful face, Jimae."

"Yeah... because you're more beautiful than me so might as well ruin it so I can look better than you."

"Don't you dare." He gave me a glare.

I turned my face into a serious one. "Make me."

"Let go now until I can still resist myself."

"Wae? What are you gonna do if I don't?"

"Hmm.. dunno.. but your lips are kinda inviting right now." I saw him smirk despite of me still pinching his cheeks.

"I'd like to see you try."

"Don't challenge the Kim Seokjin because I will really do it. But, I won't because you already belong to someone."

"Oppa..." my tone changed and I finally let go of his cheeks.

"I'm serious, Jimae. As much as you don't like it right now, you still can't avoid the fact that you're still Taehyung's girlfriend. You never had a clear closure nor going to have one, so that means you're both still committed together."

"..."

I can't say anything because he's right in so many levels.

"Look at me.... Taehyung, he's such a very kind, generous, bold, and loving guy. You are so so so lucky that you have him in your life. I know you're just blinded by the anger that caused by him that's why you're acting like this, but I know, deep inside, he's still the only person you want to see everyday, from the moment you wake up until you fall asleep. I should be mad at him right now because of how he just treated you but I can't. And I don't know why."

"Oppa, why are you always saying things like this? Why are always pushing yourself away from me? Is it because I'm still his or you're just convincing yourself to stop having feelings for me?"

"...Jimae--"

"Yeah.. you're right. I do love him. I still do. But, please... don't try to do things you can't. I can see it that you're having a really hard time doing it." I cut him off.

I gave him a quick peck on the lips. "I also love you oppa. But, not just as the same as Taehyung."

"I know that that's why I'm doing this."

"Don't! Do what you want to do. I've seen you stood still on where you are supposed to be. You know your place and you accept it. That's what I like about you. Thank you oppa. You really are something. I just hope you can find a girl who will really be there for you, to love you and to take care of you."

He smiled. "Yeah... I just hope too. Thank you, too, Jimae." we both hugged each other.

"Awww~ what a sweet sight to see." We broke away as ahjumma's voice echoed inside.

"Ahjumma. How long have you been there?" He asked.

"Just now. Why? What did I miss?" She eyed him. "Seokjin, what did you do to her?"

He put both of his arms in the air, like surrendering. "I didn't do anything, ahjumma. It's her, not me. She pinched my beautiful cheeks."

We heard her chuckled. "Good job, darling. Not everyone can do that to him except for me. And now you."

"Yeah... it's because you're the most important girls in my life that's why it's fine to me."

An hour after, Jin oppa told us he needs to go before anyone suspects anything. So now, I'm watching TV alone. Ahjumma went somewhere and told me she'll come back soon.

I've been laughing my ass out by the show I'm watching when I heard my phone rang. I answered it without looking at the caller.

"Yeoboseyo?"

My body froze by the familiar voice coming from the other line.