MY SPAZZMATE

CHAPTER 44 - STARTING ANEW

New year, new life.

I opened my eyes, greeted by a different surrounding I never thought I'll get used to. I stretched a little then stood up and made my bed before going downstairs to eat breakfast with my parents.

It's already been two years since I left Korea. Now, here I am, living a new life with my family in New York for a year now. The other year was spent in Japan but due to mom's health conditions, we flew here for her cure then decided to settled down here in case something bad happens, but I just hope not anymore. But her doctors assured us that she's already fine and well-treated so there's nothing for us to worry about.

"Good morning!" I greeted them as soon as I saw them in the kitchen.

"Morning, pumpkin!" Dad greeted back but eyes still glued to his newspaper.

"Morning, honey. Sit down, the food's almost ready."

"Ne."

After a few moments, mom served the food on the table and we all started eating.

"Jimae-ah.. gwaenchanha?" Dad asked, out of the blue.

"Huh? Uhhm.. n-ne. Why?"

"Nothing. Just asking. Wondering if you're coping up well with everything."

"Of course I do, appa."

"Jimae...I know you're not. We know that you miss a lot back there in Korea. We know you miss Seoyoung, you're friends at school and that boy group you're obsessed with." Mom interjected.

I put my utensils on the table and looked at them in the eyes. "Umma, appa. I'm fine, really. We've already talked about this before, right? Sure I do miss them, but I'm really fine. Me and Seoyoung videochats everytime we can and that's enough for me, for now. So don't worry about me. You guys are my family and I can't just leave you here for the sake of my own happiness. No, I won't."

"We're really sorry, darling. I know you're really having a hard time because of me." Mom spoke like she was about to cry.

I stood and went to her to give her a warm hug. "Umma.... don't say anything like that. I love you and I'll do anything for you. Don't think like that."

Then dad also stood up and joined the hug. "I love the both of you."

Awww... I really have a loving family. I am such a very lucky girl to be their daughter.

After our little drama, we resumed eating. "So tell me, Jimae... you have a crush on your school? Or perhaps.. a boyfriend?"

I almost spat the water I'm drinking by dad's question. "Appa! What nonsense are you talking about? Of course, I don't. I'm more focused on studying than those stupid boys."

"Yeah... because you're still in love with that guy in that group. What's the name again.. uhmm. Oh! V, isn't it?"

Great. I heard that name again.

And that was the first time I heard that name again since I left. I promised myself to never get any updates about them especially about him so I can live my new life as a free and happy girl. But sometimes, it can't be avoided because my bestfriend is in a relationship with one of them so it's hard to avoid that topic, but I told her to at least try not talk about them when we're talking.

I decided to forget everything that happened to me for the months that I've been alone in Korea because it will only give me pain and suffering. And that includes me forgetting him. Even if he's one of the most beautiful moment that happened in my life, he's also the worst.

When I went to Japan, my first few weeks there was horrible. I kept on crying every night because of too much thinking. Too much thinking of him. Sometimes, it even comes to the point where I want to pack my bags again and go back to Korea to be with him, forget everything that has happened to us and start anew. But something in me tells me that it's not the best thing to do. I'm having a very hard time sleeping because my mind is having a debate on whether I should go back and be with him or stay and forget everything. Good thing my mom is always there to comfort me so I decided to just stay. And I never regretted my decision.

When we moved to NY, I kinda didn't have a hard time making new friends. I never thought that I'll gain a few because you know, I'm Asian and they're Western. But the most shocking part is that, some of my friends know the boys and are fans of them.

The boys surely are now known everywhere. They've grown now. It's really good to know that all their hardworks have finally paid off. I'm really proud of them. Guess being away from him gives him more time on focusing on his career, to be a better performer and a better inspiration to all.

Seoyoung is one lucky girl to be a girlfriend of one of them. I just wish they won't part ways and be together until the end. Jimin oppa sure is a keeper.

I hope to meet someone like him. I don't want to be a lonely potato when I grow old, you know. I also want to be with someone who I can with everyday, for the rest of my life.

But the one I thought that would be that one is just temporary, though I wish it wasn't. But I guess fate wants to lead me to a better one so I'll just hold on to that fate and let it show me where I really am meant to be.