Trouble in Suna: Gaara fanfic {Under Construction}

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Avoiding Gaara had not been easy and I didn't know how long I could keep it up for either. The kiss was not the entire reason I been avoiding him. The real reason I have been avoiding him is ever since the kiss he has been so touchy feely with me...

Flashback (2 Days Ago)

Gaara was working on paperwork like usually at his desk while I sat on the couch like usually; however, if Temari hadn't duped me into being here I would have been tagging along with her today like I was the last three days. Being with her tired me out, I had no time to sleep when I was with her like I did when I was in Gaara's office. It wasn't like she was the reason I was tired I just didn't sleep at night, I couldn't anymore, the pills were ineffective now so if I slept I would have nightmares. The only place I didn't have nightmares was in Gaara's office or more precisely when he was near.

The moment she left me and Gaara alone an unbelievable tension fell over the room. I felt nervous and avoided looking at his face because I knew he was staring at me which only made me fidget even more. I started to play with my fingers to distract myself but it wasn't really working i could feel his eyes boring holes into my skin.

'I'll be right back' I said in my head, mocking her voice and I fell right for it like a moron, I should have known better. Should have known better was right, with all the questions she was asking me since they revolved around me and Gaara. She probably digging for information since she must have picked up on the tension between us, well, the tension was mostly on my end since the kiss had confused me. He had made it clear he had no interest in me so perhaps he was making fun of me but the kiss stirred up some really weird emotions in me that I have never felt before. I didn't want to feel anymore, Kohan was done with me and all that was left was for me to leave and disappear. A couple more months there will be the wedding and then I would fake my death. It was that simple.

I could go back to what I was, no more interactions, no more feelings, and back to nothingness. It was painful walking down this road, I didn't want to remember anymore, I wanted to forget and be left alone once more. Alone like before in the forest before that cursed woman showed up gifting me with my name and then destroying everything I was meant to protect. She tricked me and I could still feel that fire which burned that night consuming everything. All the lives that were lost because I was careless and easily deceived by a namuh. I would never be tricked by a namuh again. Ughh my head, it was beginning to throb painfully, so much blood, so much death.

I wished Silver Fang was here. He was lost like me back then, homeless and without purpose but then he found something filling the gap from when we had lost everything. He found something creating strange feelings in him from what I understood from back then. They seem to be like my own now...

"Come here" he commanded breaking me from my thought. I stopped fidgeting and glanced up at him when he said this, my head was still throbbing. When I looked at him I saw that he had propped his head up with one hand while his other hand motioned me to come to him like a dog. It angered me, I was no mongrel and I was no pet.

"I am not a dog" I snarled.

"I never thought that dogs listen better" he replied still beckoning me to come to him. His words infuriated me and I was about to make a malicious retort but he cut me off.

"Do you want me to come to you?" he asked and I knew then I had little choice but to comply. My options were going to him or for him come to me and if he came to me, I think it would be far worse then going to him. If only I could escape but my chakra was unstable or nonexistent when I was with him, which bothered me because I couldn't figure out the reason why. I thought it was the poison which caused it but it wasn't. My chakra issue would only be a problem when I left because he couldn't be near me when I faked my death otherwise my plan will fall through which would only cause problems for Kohan.