My love Troye

Sick

I threw up right then, right there. I was so embarrassed. Troye was knocking on the bathroom door. "Are you ok? Can I come in?" He asked . I replied with a yes. He walked in, I was kneeling above the toilet. Troye asked calmly  "What's t happened." I replied " I don't know! I just wanna go home!" The next couple of days were a blur. Troye played a couple shows in l.a. And I just lay  around and slept. On Monday troye had to go to to San Francisco so he was gone when I woke up. I decided to go to the store there was something i needed to buy I pregnancy test. I didn't believe it was true but I needed to rule out the possibility. I threw on a tank top and my adidas shorts and headed out the door. I felt so sick I was not going to worry about makeup. I looked like crap. I drove to CVS and hopped out of my car. I went to the health care section and grabbed like five different pregnancy tests and went to the front. I could tell the cashier was silently judging me as I paid. I quickly headed to the back of the store and into the bathroom I pulled out two of the tests. My heart was pounding. I felt like it was going to explode. I quickly peed on them both at the same time. I had to wait two minutes before it would work. I just sat there with my head in my hands, hoping, praying it wasn't true. I looked up... there was two lines. I WAS PREGNANT!!! I started to cry, I
couldn't stop. I couldn't tell if it was a happy
or a sad cry , it just wouldn't stop!

I ran out of the bathroom and to my car. I sat in the drivers seat hysterically crying. I sat there for a like an hour just processing what had happened. I didn't really know what to do so I called my best friend Arzaylea to see if I could come over. She willingly agreed. I drove over to Arzaylea's house because I really needed to talk to someone. "What's wrong" she said as soon as I pulled  up in her driveway. "I have some news... I'm a little nervous to tell you..." I replied. We walked inside and sat down. She was holding her newborn Cal in her hands. It make me even more nervous. I had that inside of me. "Umm... I don't know how else to say this... But here goes nothing. I'm p-, I'm pr-. IM PREGNANT" I blurted out. Arzaylea's fave looked sympathetic. "Oh honey..." I just started crying again and leaned on her shoulder. About a half an hour of just silence Arzaylea said "so what are you going to do?".  I replied "well I don't really want to, you know, get rid of it". She said back " well you have to tell Troye". I nodded. Later that night at about 10 Troye came home. He was tired and went straight to bed. I stayed of most of the night thinking. How was I going to tell him?