As I got out of the shower I stood in the mirror.... my body was just... not the same... I had something there. A tiny human was there. I started to break down. I could control the tears. They started pouring like a water fall. I sat down to catch my breath. I felt like I was doing everything alone. My sister knocked on the bathroom door "you ok?". I yelled back to her "yea fine. Getting dressed". I looked at myself in the mirror one last time. I looked like a beached whale. I just wanted my old body back. "HURRY UP" my sister said knocking on the door. I replied startled"Ok ok". I quickly threw on my new maternity shirt and my ripped black jeans that barely fit me. I figured fuck it I didn't need makeup. But I did have a fat pregnancy face.
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I walked out of the bathroom and into the kitchen to get my shoes. "Your not going to eat?" My sister said abruptly. I replied annoyed " I'll just grab some food on the way there". I didn't really have time for food. I had woken up way late. It was 12:30 and the baby shower started at 1:00. I grabbed my keys and ran out the door to my car. My sister followed behind. I started the car and plugged my phone into the aux cord. I loved (and still do love) music! If there was one thing I could count on it was music. Just then Troye called me. "Hey! Everything ok? Sorry I didn't come home last night. longer concert that usual." I smiled as I replied "just heading to the baby shower". "To bad guys can't go" Troye said sarcastically. I laughed as I said "ok I'm gonna call you later". We said our goodbyes and hung up. Honestly I was scared. Scared how people would treat me and scared about Troye leaving me for Conner. I turned my music up really loud as we sped off . The shower was at my parents house. My mom loved throwing parties so I told her she could do it. Just no pink or baby blue! I don't want my baby gender rolled. Just want people to love him for what he likes not for what society says he should like. My dad was still kind of weirded out about Troyes recent news about being gay. He thought it was silly and that Troye wouldn't care for the baby. But I could see the passion Troye has for his baby. We pulled up and got out. My huge belly was in the way and it took me a couple of tries to get my big ass out of the car. My sister (Polly) and I walked up to the house as my mom came outside. My moms house was huge and a peach color. "There's my girls" my mom said as she helped me up the front stairs. We went inside and I was greeted by a bunch of my friends and relatives. All of the sudden I got this sharp pain in my stomach. "Woah I need to sit down" I said as I ran past all the guests to the nearest chair. My mom ran over to me and said " are you ok??" "Yea, yea I'm fine" I replied.....
