Awkward. That's all I can say about this dinner. No one said anything. This is what it looks like every single year the last 8 years. Mom trying to make small talk in the beginning but soon realizing that it's useless. Dad is eating more than usual. Then there is me. I'm sitting by the table picking at my food thinking about what happened all those years ago. This day is always the worst. Not only is it Ben's birthday, but it's also the day he left us. I hate this day.
I got tired of just sitting here so I stood up and just walked out of the house. I just kept walking and soon enough I found myself outside Jacksons front door. The brunette that I call best friend opened the door and I walked in. I'm pretty sure that he knew that I would come, I have done that every single year the last eight years. I think that I interrupted them in the middle of their dinner, because I can smell the Naboo chicken. Ms. Eskil came out from the kitchen and hugged me. The Eskils has always been close with my family. Ms. Eskil knows that this is a painful day for all of us. Then me and Jackson went to his room. I love his room, because there is a painting covering the whole roof. It's a painting of the space, with stars and everything. I really love this painting, because I just love space so much. I specially love the memory when my father took me and my brother Ben on a trip in space on the Millennium Falcon. I loved watching the stars and all the different planets he would take us too. He would tell stories about him and his friends saving the galaxy. I wanted to do that too, it sounded so cool."You okay?" He already knew the answer, because he would always get the same answer every year, but he still asked the same question. It sort of feels like a tradition.
"No," I looked down from the painting and looked into his blue eyes with tearful eyes. He came over to me and hugged me tight. He just held me. It was comforting. "I just really miss him you know." I said and the tears fell down my cheeks.
"I know you do." Says Jackson with a calm voice.
"I feel like a part of me is missing you know. We were so close. I would never think that he would just take off the way he did. Something tells me that I am the reason he left. Like it was my fault that he left us." I said, crying harder than before.
"Jay!" He said, using the old nickname for me. When we first met and we introduced us to each other, he thought that I said Jay and not Jade, and ever since then that has been his nickname for me. He took my head in his hands and looked me straight in my eyes. "Don't you ever think that! It's not your fault and it will never be either. It's silly to think that!"
"Maybe you're right. I just have this feeling that somethings is really wrong. Like, I need to find him.." I said and looked out of Jacksons window.
There was a knock on the door. I could see Ms. Eskils head poke inside the room. "Would you guys like some chicken? Or anything to drink? I made cookies!" She showed us a tray of cookies and Jacksons face got the same shade as a tomato."No mom we're good! Just leave." Jackson said and Ms. Eskil nodded.
"Okay, I will leave the tray of cookies here anyway." She said and put the tray on the nightstand and left the room. I laughed. I really like Ms. Eskil.
We spent the rest of the evening just talking and eating the cookies Ms. Eskil gave us. When the clock showed 22.00 I went home, I know that my mom and dad will be angry at me but I don't care.
Before I went to bed I was staring at my reflection in the mirror. Normally I would see a happy blonde blue eyed girl, but not today. The blonde hair was covering my face. The blue eyes were bright, and my eyes were red and puffy from crying.
That night I couldn't sleep at all, all I could think about was Ben, and that strange felling telling me that I should go and find him. I know that it's like the most stupid idea ever, but I just want to find him so much. I tossed and turned trying to fall asleep, but it was in possible so I got up and did the only thing I could think of doing. I put some of my clothes in a bag, took the keys to the spaceship and quietly left the house. I let my feet guide the way and I found myself standing outside Jackson's door. I stared at the door for a while. I don't know what I was doing there.Maybe I wanted Jackson to come with me. But I know that it would be to risky for him. I know what he would say. ' Are you that stupid, it's like the dumbest idea ever. I'm surprised that I wasn't the one who came up with it.' I decided to just leave before he noticed that I'm here.
As I was walking I was shaking even though it wasn't cold. Maybe I was scared or nervous or something. It felt like I was walking for hours, even though it was just ten minutes. I got to the spaceship. It's not that big, but I don't mind it will only be me anyway so it doesn't matter. As I sat down in the driver seat, I heard a weird noise. I took out my lightsaber and slowly walked towards the noise.
The first chapter!! :D Hope you like it, if not, read it anyway! It will be better, maybe.
The first chapters are a bit short but they will be longer, we promise.
Julie&Julia and yeah, bye.
YOU ARE READING
The Light Warrior (STAR WARS FANFIC)
Science FictionHer brother Ben Solo left when Jade was only 7 years old. She never understood why. As she grew older she needed to find out more about it. Jade wanted to find her brother. Together with her best friend Jackson she flies across the galaxy to find h...