TW: mention of suicide/suicidal thought? (im not sure how to tag it but yeah)
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you were like a hurricane in my life. throughout the beginning there were several storms and few calm moments. then i was in the eye. it was calm until i foolishly stepped out of the small eye and was hit by several strong storms.
you were such a big part of my life. i sometimes wonder what would happen if i just unblocked you, just to see what you would do.
i hate how you still linger. i hate that i wasted tears on you. i hate that even if the storm had passed, i thought that if i really wanted to, i could end myself and be safe from the pain. i hate the emotions that swirl around when i think of you. rage and sadness are the ones that stand out the most. i hate how you tore me apart, no, i hate how you still tear me apart even if hurricane season is over.
fuck you
YOU ARE READING
i've been thinking too much
Random*Not a fic* A book of random thoughts. Probably late night, silly, dumb, emotional,etc, thoughts. You don't have to read it. It's just for me to have a place to write stuff I guess. I might delete this after a while who knows. *May have typos an...
