Inked Thoughts

Incomprehensible

I was never the "holy" one.
I never fully understood how a Father can give up His Son.
I never thought that sins would vanish and be gone.
I knew I was dirty no matter how much atonement I've done.

My mouth spat poison-
Rambling curses for no particular reason.
My eyes would burn with passion-
A passion that's leading to a liaison.

My mind would fly off to the farthest spaces.
My feet would wander to restricted places.
My hands would bring others bruises.

I lived in immorality.
Spent my days in debauchery.
All I did was a blasphemy,
But still, You were there waiting for me.

Why did You stay when you could have gone away?
Why did You remain for someone who has gone astray?
Why did You give me another day?
Why did You teach me how to pray?

I never thought of a love like this.
The feeling is absolute bliss.

I cannot comprehend this grace.
This grace You give with a simple embrace.

Why did You choose to die?
I don't get it. Was it to make me cry?
Or was that Your way of saying "good-bye"?

I don't understand this "salvation".
How is it just from a simple decision?
Why give it to someone like me? A corrupt person?

Why do You love me so much?
I'm good-for-nothing, but You never treated me as such.

Most of all, why did You wait
For a man of very little faith?

Written: July 20, 2016