Brendon [P.O.V.]
Ryan was stil laying with me and it was like 2:30 in the afternoon. Spencer came in and whispered,
"You dudes remember how we are on tour, and have a show tonight?" Ryan stuck his tongue out at him. I giggled at this man I call my bestfriend. I whispered,
"Spencer, Ryan said we can't shower together. Will you shower with me?" I added a pouty lip. Spencer shot a disgusted look,
"I will take a rain check." I jump up excitedly,
"So at some point it will happen?" Spencer just shook his head and walked away. I turned to a dead silent Ryan who almost looked... hurt? I whispered, "Ry...?" He looked at me very sad. I whispered, "Are you alright?" He shook his head,
"No, I'm not alright. At all." He ran out of the bunk to the bathroom. I ran after him and knocked on the door. He whispered, "Go away." I stiffled back tears,
"Ryan, please. Can you tell me what I did?"
"Nothing Brendon, it isn't you it's me." He sighed.
"Are you breaking up with me Ry?" I tried to make a joke to see if he would open the door. Ryan sighed and turned the handle. He poked his head out and whispered,
"Of all the times to make a dumping joke. And you to be the one making them." I smiled at him trying to make me feel guilty for making him feel guilty.
"I'm fine Ryan. I'm a fast healer I promise." He sighed and whispered,
"Yeah, I know." I smiled,
"By next week I will have all the bitches." A tinge of jealousy crossed his face as he tried to fake a laugh. I whispered, "I'm just kidding. Girls are icky Ryro don't worry." I stuck my tongue out at him as he laughed a little. Ryan walks out of the bathroom under the light and I see a line of tears on each cheek. I wipe them away and whisper, "Ryan, I don't want to make you cry." He just stood so still and silent. I embraced him to try and make him happy. He squirmed himself in closer to me. I smiled as Ryan whispered,
"What's wrong with me?" I pulled him away so I could look him in the eyes,
"What do you mean?" He sighed,
"I mean you got dumped by the girl you loved and you are still a more stable human than I am. I'm here crying when it would be expected for you to be crying. I am awful at helping my friends. Pitiful." I hugged him so tightly he may not be able to breath.
"George Ryan Ross, I love you. You are my bestfriend. Never feel that you are in adequite. I want nothing more than to see you smile." I felt him tighten his already strong grip. Everything felt so surreal an perfect. I was in his arms and I loved it. He was amazing. I could smell him. Even his BO smelt pretty good (gross did I just think that). I was losing it for this man. I think I'm straight right? Jon ruined the perfection as he yelled,
"Yo bromance, shower it up. I don't care if it is together but get ready." Ryan sighed looking at me and whispered,
"You can have first shower. I need to find a good outfit." I smirked at Ryan. I kind of wish he had said he would join me. Honestly I really wanted him with me where ever I went.
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It was five minutes to show and I was totally prepared. We were going to be doing some great numbers. Never mind the fact I looked insane in my emo circus gear. I saw Ryan in the other wing. He looked gorgeou. I was totally ready to get out there. I heard the voice boom,
"Here they are Panic! at the Disco!" We ran out and I got to the microphone. I smiled,
"HEY GUYS! IT'S GONNA BE A GOOD SHOW!" We then started with Time to Dance. Next we did These Tables are Numbered for a Reason Honey, the fun would start with But it's better if you do. As the music started I was prancing around stage. As it got to the second verse I was by Ryan. I smirked at him as I ran my hand over his chest. The fans screamed. I boomed, "OH YOU LIKE IT WHEN I TOUCH RYAN? OKAY." I ran my hand through his hair as they cheered louder. I laughed, "WELL, WHAT IF I KISSED HIM?" They cheered so loud a I laughed hysterically. Ryan looked at me quizzically. I honestly did want to kiss him really bad. I looked at him again and whispered, "can I?" He nodded slightly. I moved in and crashed our lips together. It was not long but not short either. I felt his lips move in unison with my own. It was perfect! I pulled away when I heard the beginning of Lying start up. Ryan played along as I came over grabbing his legs and arms. I grabbed his butt at one point which got everyone a little excited. I breathed on his neck in the most disgusting manor because my breathing was so shaky. I laughed as he smirked at me. I went back to my stand for our last song I write sins not Tradgeties. As the song was coming to a close I was unaware of the presences of Ryan Ross beside me. Ryan then leaned over into the microphone as the music ended,
"Hey guys thank you for a wonderful show and so you can leave with a great memory of this preformance." Then Ryan leaned over and kissed me. Everyone cheered. I forgot about everything and ran my tongue against Ryan's bottom lip but he granted enterance and I tried to explore every area of his mouth till Jon mumbled,
"Goodnight children." We broke apart instantly. We walked off stage. I looked at Ryan and he returned a look of 'we aren't talking about this'. We understood there was no talking about this one.
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FanfictionRyan hears Jon and Spencer talking and it plants some seeds in his head. Does he really like Brendon or was it just what Jon and Spencer said that made him question his own sexuality?
