Saved By Him (Sammy Wilkinson)

Chapter 13

⚠️Triggering?⚠️
Sidney's POV:
I woke up this morning and looked over and seen that Sam wasn't in bed. I got up and went into the bathroom to take a shower. When I opened the door I heard the shower running already. That must mean Sammy is already in here. I started to take off my clothes but before I was finished Sam peeked out of the curtain.
Sam: I thought I heard something.
Me: yup you heard me baby. Now move I'm coming in.
He stepped back and I got in and he instantly wrapped his hands around my waist from behind and put his face in my neck.
Sam: I love you baby.
Me: I love you too baby.
Sam: so are we going to start packing today we get to move tomorrow.
Me: yes sir, I'm so excited to share a house with you daddy.
When I said that he slapped my ass
Me: Sam! What was that for. I said with a smirk on my face.
Sam: ohh baby I think you know. And your not funny. A week after you have the baby I'm am going to show you not to mess with me baby you are going to get it hard.
Me: I'm sooo scared.
Sam: you should be baby.
Me: haha just shut up and let me shower daddy.
Sam: fine Mami I love you I'm done so I'll be in the room packing.
Me: okay baby I love you
Sam: I love you to baby.
When I got out of the shower I realized that I once again forgot me clothes in the room. I wrapped up on my towel and went into the room over to my side of the dresser.
Sam: hey, baby girl forget your clothes again.
Me: yes sir I in fact did I always somehow end up forgetting.
Sam: well I think that you just want me to see you with no clothes on and you want to tease me.
Me:haha yea right because that is my goal of the day is to tease you. Baby I love you so damn much.
Sam: I love you to baby what are you wearing today?
Me: well how about I go get ready in the bathroom and come out and surprise you.
With that said I went into the bathroom before Sam could say any thing. When I was in the bathroom I looked at myself in the mirror. And all I seen was and ugly blob of nothing. Then as I caught myself thinking this way about myself I remembered what Sammy always tells me. He always says that I am beautiful and gorgeous. And he tells me that he loves me for who I am and he wants me to believe I am beautiful. He wants me to tell myself that I am beautiful.
Me: I am beautiful. I quietly whispered to myself. I looked at myself in the mirror again and whispered I am a beautiful girl who is in love with Sam Wilkinson. After I said that I remembered that I have to tell Sammy my biggest secret and I don't really know how he is going to react and that is that I use to cut but I am 2 weeks clean. I put on my outfit

and did my makeup and smiled while walking back out to Sammy.
Sammy's POV:
When Sidney went into the bathroom all I could think of is how happy I am to have her. And then I heard the whisper something so I put my ear the door and she said
Sidney: I am beautiful. I am a beautiful girl who is in love with Sam Wilkinson.
I smiled and ran downstairs.
Me: mom mom mom.
Mom: Sammy is everything okay what's wrong?
Me: Nothing nothing's wrong everything is amazing. I said with a huge ass smile on my face.
Mom: okay well what is amazing.
Me: you will never believe what I just heard.
Mom: what did you hear honey haha
Me: Sidney she said to herself in the bathroom she said that she was beautiful mom I thinks that she honestly finally believes that she is beautiful. Do you have any idea how long I have been trying to convince her that she is.
Mom: well I'm happy for her it's about time she finally believes.
Me: well I have to go back up and pack but I just wanted to tell you.
Mom: okay.
I went back upstairs into our room and started to pack our clothes. And then I seen something that I never wanted to see some thing that I didn't know that she did. When she comes out I am going to confront her.
Sidney's POV:
I came out of the bathroom and I looked at Sammy and smiled.
Me: so you like my outfit?
Sam: yea you look great. 
I noticed that there was something wrong with him.
Me: Sammy baby are you okay?
Sam: when are you going to tell me Sidney.
I sat down next to him on the foot of the bed and put my hand on his shoulder.
Me: tell you what bab...
I was cut of by him pushing my hand off of him and standing up.
Sam: why the fuck didn't you tell me that you felt the need to cut your self.
How did he find out this morning in the shower I was very careful to not let him see my thys.
Me: no no no no. I whispered under my breath.
Sammy how how did you find out?
Sam: I was packing our stuff and I seen your blades. Baby please tell me that they are used for something else please baby. Please
He said while sliding down the wall. I got up and ran to and hugged him.
Me: Sammy I'm sorry I was going to tell you today. I said holding his head and playing with his hair.
Sam: how long.
Me: what do you mean?
Sam: when did you start and when was the last time you did it?
Me: I started a month and a half ago and the last time I did it was two weeks ago.
Sam: I am so fucking stupid how the fuck did I not realize this. He said raising his voice a little.
Me: Sam please don't yell. Your mom will hear you.
Sam: I don't give a fuck if she hears me. I just don't understand how I didn't find out until now. He said still yelling.
Me: baby please I-I'm s-sorry.
When I said that the door flung open and in came a worried Lori.
Lori: what's going on.
By now Sammy was pacing back and forth and I was still sitting on the floor. I looked up at Sam and made eye contact with him and pleaded for him not to tell her.
Sam: n-nothing in sorry ill quiet down.
She then look over at me and mouthed are you okay. I nodded my head and she walked out of the room. I got up off of the floor and went up to Sammy and grabbed ahold of his hand.
Me: Sammy please just let me explain 
Sam: okay come sit down.
We sat both climbed into bed and I sat facing him but he refused to make eye contact with me.
Me: Sammy please look at me.
He looked up at me and he had tears in his eyes and one dropped down his face. I wiped it away and hugged him and said.
Me: Sammy I'm sorry I was going to tell you today. I-I just...
He cut me off
Sam: why did you start instead of telling me what was on your mind baby. I just I don't know why you don't talk to me about this stuff. I am here for you baby. I'm here always.
Me: I don't know it was around the time where I was always having the dreams about my dad. And I just miss him. And I know it sounds fucked up that i do but I can't help it I mean he's my dad. And I didn't want you to be mad at me for missing him like I was mad at myself. I just I'm so fucking sorry Sammy I'm sorry for always disappointing you. I haven't done it in two weeks and baby I promise you that I will never do it again.
Sam:Sidney I understand that you miss your dad but baby I will never be mad at you for missing him I may not agree with it but I will never be mad at you because of it okay and I'm not disappointed in you I just want us to not have secrets I am here for you baby and I am not going anywhere.
When he said that I grabbed his face and kissed him. When we pulled away I looked in his eyes and smiled.
Sam: I love you so much baby. And I'm  sorry for yelling at you.
Me: it's okay Sammy you were hurt I understand. But thank you for not telling your mom I just don't want her to look at me differently. And that is apart of the reason I didn't want you to know.
Sam: babygirl I want you to know that I will never look at you any different I love yo and I'll always love you.
Me: I always love you too. Sammy what are we going to tell your mom about us fighting earlier.
Sam: I don't know we'll just say that it was a misunderstanding. But we fixed it now.
Me: okay. We should finish packing.
Sam: yea we are almost done.
(20 minutes later)
We only had a few more things to pack up and then we were done. Once I had finished the stuff I was supposed to pack I walked over to Sammy and wrapped my arms around his torso from behind him.
Me: hi daddy.
Sam: hey baby you done.
Me: yea but I don't feel good.
Sam: what time is it?
I pull out my phone and it was already 6:30pm.
Me: 6:30pm why
Sam: well shit I didn't even feed you that is why you don't feel good baby I'm sorry.
Me: baby don't put blame on you I'm a big girl I can take care of myself. What do you want for dinner baby?
Sam: why don't we order pizza.
Me: okay I'll go tell mom we are having pizza.
Sam: okay baby girl I love you
Me: I love to baby. I pecked his lips and went into Lori's room because that is where she was. I knocked on the door.
Lori: come in.
I opened the door and walked in.
Me: hey I wanted to tell you that we are ordering pizza.
Lori: okay honey.
Me: look I'm sorry about earlier. It's just I have been having crazy hormones lately and have been taking it out on Sammy. When tho I don't mean to.
Lori: come sit down.
I walked over to the other side of the bed and laid down and looked up at her.
Lori: honey you don't have to be sorry it happens. It happened to me when I had Sammy and his brother and sisters.
Me: wait Sammy's not an only child?
Lori: oh you didn't know I have an older son and two girls.
Me: oh I didn't know so is Sammy like the baby or something?
Lori: yea he is my youngest. I'm just surprised that you haven't his siblings i mean they never come over but.
Me: yea well we will sure have to do that won't we.
Lori: haha yea we will. So when are you and Sammy moving to your guys place?
Me: tomorrow we finished packing everything today.
Lori: okay that's good I am so proud of you guys.
Me: thank you mom.
Lori: no problem sweetie what are you guys doing the rest of the night.
Me: I...
I was then cut off my Sammy coming in the room and answering.
Sam: well we are going to chill tonight.
He said then came over to the side of the bed I was on then laid next to me while hugging my waist.
Me: yea we are doing that.
Sam: so momma we have a question for you.
Lori: what's up honey?
Sam: well since its our last night together do you want to chill with us.
Lori: yea that sounds great.
I got up off of the bed and jumped up and down
Me: yay family time.
Sam: haha come here.
I walked up to him and laid down in between Sammy and Lori. I looked up at Sammy and kissed his cheek. We are watching 22 jump street. My stomach started to hurt so I was rubbing it and I think Sammy noticed. He looked down at me with a concerned look on his face then leaned down to my ear and whispered.
Sam: what's wrong baby girl?
I leaned up to his ear and said.
Me: my tummy hurts.
When I said that he lifted up my shirt and started to rub my stomach. Then he kissed it and laid his had down on it. I was softly playing with his hair and after a few minutes I heard snoring. When the movie was over Lori and I was still up. She looked over at me then at Sammy then back at me and said.
Lori: you know when you guys first got together I thought he was going to break your heart. But I was wrong when I look at the two of you all I see is pure love for eachother.
And Sidney I just want to say thank you for getting my son on the right track and giving him a chance.
Me: the thing is that I had the same feeling at first then one day it just hit me hard that I am truly in love with Sammy and I was so scared that if I told him he wouldn't want anything to do with me anymore because at the time we were just friends. And then when he saved me from my dad and I seen the protectiveness in his eyes I knew that he had to feel at least a little something for me but that thing in my head that puts all of the negative stuff in my mind was telling me that he doesn't care about me but that night there was something inside of me that made me feel like I had to tell him the way I felt and I'm do happy I did because now I have you, him, and our baby and I couldn't be any happier.
Lori: you guys are perfect for each other. I love you Sidney.
Me: I love you to mom.
Sammy slowly started to move and he wrapped his hands around my waist and held me. I looked down at him and laughed.
Me: okay well I am going to wake him up and we will give you your room back.
Lori: haha okay but thank you for hanging out with me.
Me: your welcome momma.
With that said I slowly shook Sammy
Me: Sammy we have to go to bed get up baby.
Sam: okay babe lets go. He said getting up and waking over to his mom and kissing her cheek.
Sam: love you momma night
Lori: love you too Sammy night.
I slowly waddled to our room and laid on the bed and Sammy came out of the bathroom and laid in bed and pulled me close to him and we cuddled and fell asleep.