4:Unleash the anger

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Flashback-12-years ago
"Dad! Dad! Dad!" I say as he comes home from work.
"The h-Hell you want!" Breathes out fast and already you could smell the nasty stench of liquor and sweat. He looked gross.
"I...I.want to ask if..we could have a party for my birthday?" The last part was mumbled out.
"What! No! Go to your room!" He half yells looking pissed off and is that blood.
"Ok!" I run to my room. Why is he always like this now...it scares me. I wish I had a mom like everyone else in my class. Then maybe i could have a happy family. Dad is always mad around my birthday. I feel my eyes getting numb and watery. Does Dad hate me? I sit down on my bed looking at the ground. Why! I didn't do anything. I need to know. I shut my eyes closed and tears fall on the ground. Stuffing my face into my pillow to clean up my tears. It's harder to breathe so l swallow the lump in my throat and cough a little.
CLATING! The sound of glass braking.
"GAh THE FUCK! WHY YOU LITTLE!" Roared the beast himself.
THUMP THUD THUMP THUD!
Oh no he's coming. I run to my closet hiding myself with some clothes.
"Come out right now!" Putting his foot down causing me to flinch.
I try to slow down my breathing best I could. Please help me don't let him find me.
Thud thump.
No please let me die here.
Creeek!
"Get up right now!" His voice rugged.
I get up slowly hopefully it won't be so bad.
"What is this!" He rushes grabbing my ear leading me down stairs to my toy box.
"Um..my toy box." Confused to why he's asking me this it's always been there. Is that a broken glass cup on the ground. Wait is that why he's mad.
"Yeah and because of you I spilled my drink!" He fires back
"What but it's always been there." I say shaking a bit.
"What was that!" He lifts his hand
"NOTHING I'M SORRY." I fall to the ground prying he won't hit me
"You just like to give me reasons to get mad!" SLAP!!
"AAHH!!!! I'm..(sob).sorry!" Please let him calm down.
"YOUR SORRY FOR WHAT!" His yelling becoming louder.
"For every thing.(sob)..please stop!" Begging for this to be over.
"REALLY NOW..IS SORRY GOING TO BRING BACK YOUR MOM! Hhmm!" He says though his teeth.
"What? (Sob)What do you mean." Was this my fault? Is he telling the truth?
"You killed her it's your fault!"
"What? (Sobbing)" it can't be.
"You know what go to your room!" He says somewhat sad.
I run once I was given the chance. I shut my door and lock it. I don't believe him he's crazy. This has to be a lie. What was the point of that it was pointless. I just hate him he never listens. I can't be like other kids with there perfect family. They always say I hate my mom she always makes me do chores. Pff what I'd do to be in there place. I never knew my mom. Ugh I'm just so...so MAD! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!! UUUGGGH!!
What am I a murder now. I don't deserve to be happy maybe he's right. I can't have friends I'll just make their lives miserable. I'm useless. No one can understand how I feel. Not even me...I HATE IT WHY CANT I DO ANY THING RIGHT!!!!
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AN: Sorry it's short and for any mess ups. Sorry I'm just kinda mad today. I got some bad news about my right eye and I feel so ugh!...If u could understand what I mean by that Sorry man I need to stop saying sorry. Well thanks for reading anyways hope you like bye...

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