Death Greets Me

June 15,2030

 June 15, 2030

Dear Diary,

It me Angelia.

I'm sorry I haven't written within your beautiful pages and I hope you forgive me. It been six months and a lot happen. Let's start from the being. Well, am still jobless and still living at home. Mom and Dad haven't reach to the point to ask me to find a job yet. Which has me worried a bit? So, I pushed myself to get up early in the morning so nobody can notice me or even recognize me. Went to do some job hunting it way more peaceful and easier when you don't have to cross path with people in town. Who constantly stares at you while you're walking, but lately I have notice am not the only one whose moved back home. Do you remember my old high school crush Felix Gray, well he back in town? We ran into each other. I believe he was back for a while, not sure when thought. We were talking like we haven't seen each other for years, but in fact the true be told we haven't and yes, he still sweet as ever. He doesn't have his long hair anymore; he said he grow out of the emo and punk look and wanted to look more mature. If you're thinking he cut off all his hair he didn't. His hair is black short that staying above his ear. His eyes are still that amazing green. His eyes must be a rare color of green. It like watching the season change right in front of you when you stare into his eyes. His body structure was lean you can still see his amazing muscle... CRAP! there drool all over your pages... Please forgive me.

Am sorry Dairy for getting you beautiful page so dirty... just every time I always think about him my mind wonders in places it shouldn't, but it best not to let the mind wonders off. Felix told me not to worry because he was in the same situation I was in, but it was weird for me to hear that. Knowing who he was in this town was a big deal, his family was the founder of this town. It was small, like every small town in the country. Boring, Low population, and not much trouble it always dull here no matter what, but sometime I guess that how small town work. When looking at him I really don't know what to say. Not sure if he should be happy or sad, but I had this odd feel I should stay away from him or shouldn't believe him. Honestly, I want to brush of this weird feel away. It's not like him to lie, right? I remember how sweet he was. How he didn't treat me like a failure, so I just push this feel way. The conversation I had with him was almost an hour long. I must admit I enjoy talk to him the conversation end because I remember that day; I had to going visit my mom at work. She needs help with the financial base of her business, but before walking away he left a kiss on my cheek. This kiss left me in a daze. As I walk away i could feel him staring at my back as if he was waiting for me to run in his arm. I didn't know what to do. I didn't tell mom what have happen because she would push me into try to be with him and I only think he was being sweet you know, but this was only the first part of the story I had to tell you my dear diary. I really don't mind my fingers going numb just to fill your pages of what happen to me in my life I just think the more important stuff that changes my days are more interesting than the boring ones.

The second part of my story is these dreams I kept having. It had that guy in my dream with his face cloak in black this time he wasn't tell me to come with him. He just stands there staring at me. So, I walk turns him smiling at him and ask him if I made him wait too long. He said no. not sure how I know that without seeing his lips move. Honestly, I don't even know if he had any lips, but he took my hands and brought me to this place and all you can see it fields of flower I am not sure if they there was an end to it or if it keeps ongoing, but it was beautiful. He took me to the middle of the field where we sat down and talk for hours on end, I felt happy there was no stress or worry at all. I really didn't want to wake up at all. It was the best dream I had in a long time, but I stared at him for a moment to go lean against him. He pushes me away. I thought I did something wrong, so I got up and run away from him I didn't turn around to see him chasing me or anything I really don't remember what happened after because I woke up with the sunlight in my eyes. I could feel my sheet soaked with my sweat and my lips were dry. I didn't know it was that hot in my room, but the thing was, the air conditioner was on all night. I look up at my ceiling and I saw it. I saw its pale face staring into my eyes. It was waving at me in a way to say hello or goodbye. This time my body could move as I try to reach out to touch the finger that lingers against my ceiling. Am not sure where did all my fear went and why I couldn't scream, but before I know it, I was falling asleep again.

My mother's voice awoke me. Telling me it's dinner. My mother didn't question why my shirt was clinging to my body exposing the shape of my breast all she did said" Sweety you should really cover yourself" I was a bit upset by that. I told her I was going to be ready in an hour she nods her head and left my room. My dear diary, not sure what the meaning of my dreams are anymore, and to wake up in the situation I was in scared me. You're the only thing I can trust with this feel and secret because I don't know what will happen if people find out I saw death or something like death twice and am still alive. I Have to going now. My brothers are making a visit today, so mom wants me to help her cook dinner tonight. I hope this filled your hunger for stories my beloved diary. I will write within your pages soon.

As always,

Angelia