Breathe Hope In Me

Chapter 2: Cry night

I fell asleep on Austin's bed for god knows how long, when I sleep I usually get nightmares and generally Austin would make them go away. Although, there were no nightmares tonight, maybe there were leaving for good. When I woke up everything was dark, Austin was no longer beside me. I laid on his unmade bed looking at the dull peeling ceiling, we would usually do this; sleep and dare not say a word to each other. I grabbed my phone that was in my back pocket and I turned it on and found out that it was 2:34 A.M and I had countless phone calls from Araceli and Dad. I called Araceli back because she's the one who understands these situations more, the phone rang as I sat in silence.

"Kinsley? Where are you? I've been up all night waiting for you to call back!" Araceli said rapidly as soon as she answered, she was more responsible now since everything happened.

"I'm at Austin's house and I may have overslept, I didn't mean to. I'm on my way." I said still laying down, tears rolled down my cheeks. I wasn't crying because I made my sister worried, the crying was because in one day I would have to go back to the hospital. The hospital wasn't a bad place, it just so much has gone down there and I can't stand spending even a few hours there.

"Okay make Austin take you home in his car, I don't trust the people on the streets at this time."

"I promise I will."

"Ok I love you, stay safe." The phone call ended as she said those last words, her voice echoing in my head. I love my sister more than you can imagine but I know that when I die it's just going to be dad and Franco who'll be in touch. In my mind, I know Araceli's going to leave just like mom did with Quinn.

I laid there for another three minutes motivating myself to get up, I finally convinced myself and I slowly stood up and gulped as I saw Austin sleeping on the floor. I tried making excuses as to why he laid on the floor instead of on the bed.

"Austin, Austin, babe, wake up sleepy head." I cooed as I sat up on the bed, I got off the bed and onto the warm carpet and sat on the floor beside him. I ruffled his hair and played with it, I looked at him with sincerity. His head now laid on my thighs, he always looked so peaceful when he slept.

"Morning Lillie," Austin said waking up, my breath hitched as he said the word, Lillie. Who the fuck was Lillie? Why did he say Lillie?

"What the hell did you say?" I said throwing his head off of me, tears were slowly accumulating in my eyes. Panic welling up inside me like I was about to explode.

"I said, babe! I swear Kinsley I said babe!" Austin's eyes flashed open as I pushed him away from me, Austin had cheated on me before and I obviously knew that he was capable of doing it again. Though I don't want to admit it, I loved him too much to throw away our relationship.

"No Austin you said Lillie! How dare you? Wait let me guess, she's just a friend or maybe this time she's your cousin!"

"No no King she's...... Fuck, there's no use in telling you lies anymore. Look, King, I love you so much it's just the passion isn't there anymore. You don't let me take you on dates and you always want to sleep or just make out, and I don't want that. I want to fall in love with someone stupidly, I want to feel chills when I'm with that someone, I want to feel pain when that someone gets mad at me! Look, I'll always be here to talk to you, and if you ever need anything I'll be there! There's no need to talk about Lillie and I am truly sorry for telling you shitty lies. I'm sorry King, I'll take you home." Austin spoke softly, leaving me dumb founded. I felt the same way I guess but he's been the only person who's loved me for who I am, behind the sickness. My heart ached as he told me that we should part, I would miss the rough kissing and the soft touches. He was my escape from everything and I truly believed that he was mine forever. I sat there in shock for a few minutes and I know I nodded somewhere in between the time he was talking to me.