is it still a joke now?

if only-

thing is

i will go weeks

and weeks and weeks

pretending i dont care

fooling the people around me

fooling myself

truth is

i lie

i am the biggest liar you will ever meet

i lie to everyone i meet

i lie to myself

but then it piles up

and up and up

and then it becomes to much to handle ,to heavy

and i can't take it anymore

and i break

i completely and utterly break.

i am broken

but no one can fix me

only i can Do that

oh..if only i could

if only i was that strong

if only we all were...