So... I just found out a few days ago that I have insomnia.
It had been going on for a while before I actually found out *yawn*
I'm always so tired and I cant sleep.
before insomnia came its way into my brain, I actually got anxiety from the dark.
I cant be alone in my room without someone(I know that sounds childish) but luckily, I share a room with my older sister. I cant stare out into the void of darkness in my room without getting anxiety and totally freaking out.
I cant put the blanket over my entire body cause I have trouble breathing in such a small space so, there is only one option left.
I know this sounds very funny, I kinda find it very funny soo I put the blanket over my eyes and body, leaving my mouth and nose outside the blanket so I can still breath. Heyyy I mean at least it works.
I used to be able to go to sleep at a reasonable hour and wake up at a reasonable hour. But, now... I fall asleep hours after 12 AM and wake up around noon, or I wake up in the middle of the night a few times, or I wake up early and get even more tired.
I hope this ends soon, cause I have school next month and I have to wake up at 6AM everyday to get ready for school and to get there on time.
And I would probably only get... Around 5 hours of sleep AND I WILL definitely NOT BE ABLE TO FUNCTION. I cant even function when I get 7 hours of sleep. MY SLEEPING SCHEDULE IS SCREWED.
I'm very tired right now.
Want to know something funny?
In the middle of the night, last night, I woke up cause I was cold. My blanket was under my back and as I was trying to get it (My eyes were closed) I accidentally banged my head against the wall. HAAHA thats funny, okay?
I opened my eyes and im like just like "what the hell?" cause I usually face the other way when I sleep. Here I am staring at my 'the walking dead' poster, confused as fuck.
I woke up a few more times in the middle of the night unable to sleep
I've kinda stopped eating again... I still eat? But just in little portions through out the day. WhHYY?!
I know, I hate it too. But I just don't like eating anymore. ANNDD I have terrible mood swings, half of the day I'll be happy and "oo I look good today" the other half, I'll change to an emo fuck who just sits on the couch,on their laptop listening to MCR and Melanie Martinez. "ughh I'm so tired" and "eww I thought I looked good today? What happened?"
Ughhh well Im better now im not as depressed as I was yesterday, yay.
Well thats it for today, I've got to finish before my parents get home from church. SOO GOODBYE HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS RANT
