Academy Of American Bullshit

malcontent//rant.

I feel as if I'm stuck in idle. I'm done with the free-for-all, animalistic fight for recognition and power that we call the American school system, but now, I'm sat here at home, doing nothing for the world, for the people I have so much passion for. Shit, I'm not even sure how I'm going to get the things that I want from this world.
I genuinely care for the wellbeing of other people, its like I thrive off the healthy/happy energy of others. I adore seeing others doing well in life. I love listening to others talk about the things they love and why they love them, I love the way their eyes get wide and they almost look scared of their own dreams. 
Even people I hardly know, its like I absorb their emotions and it hits me like a semi truck when all I see is death and devastation. When I see the lives of innocent people being killed because of their race. When I see misguided vigilantes taking the lives of innocent people meant to protect us. It makes no sense to me. It knocks the wind out of my lungs and leaves me speechless because I don't know how to solve these issues for the world and if I could, I would swallow all of the bad things in the world whole and let it poison me until I died, just so the world could be better.
But I can't do any of that.
All I can do is type these words out and hope that maybe I'll touch somebody's heart. Hope that maybe I'll save someone.

The hardest thing I've learned in life is that you can't save everyone.