Adopted By The Fuentes Brothers

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WARNING : if you are sensitive please skip it love you all

Is life really worth it? You know .if you are living but fon't actually feel alive it's just waste of time isn't it? Is it worth living when all you want is end your life? Is every minute of your life worth it  when the only thing you think is lock yourself in your room and hurt yourself again and again? Why does everybody is like ' why did you do that to yourself? " like it's my body . My life. Mind your own bussiness . Sociaty tells us that killing ourselves is wrong . When i was younger I was so scared seing people on the news kikling themselves  .  Hah . And now I laugh at me . I find myself breaking down in tears and not even knowing the reason why. At least I'm feeling something

I got up from my bed rubbing softly my eyes . I checked the time ugh it's 1:15 PM . I need more dreams . And less life 

I logged in my Tumblr account . I saw that I had 23 notifications wow  . The most of my notifications were death threats like ' kill yourself' 'emo faggot'
'Mike Fuentes doesn't even know you exist'
'Mike is mine you bi.tch' etc.

Basically I was ecpecting that . Since I don't remember my last name I put 'Nia M Fuentes'
My profile was a picture of me and Mike smiling . I don't understand though everyone has a crush on Mike why does everyone noticed Me? My heart started beating really fast and I run fast to the kitchen to reach my pills and a glass of water   God I hate panic attacks . I hate me I hate breaking down in tears . But now I hate to hide my emotions for as long as I can . I must stay emotionless . I took one pill and drank the whole glass of water wuickly before anyone can see me

I haven't eat since yesterday morning and it feels great  to be honest

Vic was still at Neck Deep's house and Mike was now eating pizza

"Hey " he said

I zoned out oh god

"You were staring at me smiling did I do something ? "

I whispered a No and he sat next to me "so how are you?" I shrugged at his question "come on wear your shoes and let's go to Hot Topic you need clothes"

"Please Mike No. I am fine just please "

"Nia.... I have to disagree with you now let's go " i mouthed a fine and we drived to the nearest HT .

"Ohmygod blessthefall shirt " i said smiling "take it!" Mike poked my shoulder

"No, it's a bit expensive" I said staring at my shoes " I don't ca-" some girls cut Mike off
"Why is Mike Fuentes talking with you Nia? You are worthless he doesn't care about you he is forced to love you and you know it " the blondie said

"Excuse me but who are you? Nia do you know them? " I nodded in agreement

"They told me stuff yesterday on Tumblr ..... but it's okay... fuck off so what's your name on Tumblr? Mikefuentesismydaddy? Pathetic " i said to the blondie and with that she left

"Nia are you okay? I should have been the one to stick for you....shit" he said hugging me

Anyway We bought t-shirts like Neck Deep , Green Day , Ramones , Sleeping With Sirens and As It Is some skinny jeans and a pear of Vans . It cost much and that made me feel bad because I don't have money . Secondly I don't deserve any of this stuff and last but not least the money aren't mine..

_____let's skip this at Nia's birthday . 1 month later _____

Living with Vic and Mike is the most amazing thing ever . But I feel weird because is it weird if me and Mike kissed more than 2 times? Like no cheeck kiss . The lip one . He is like my "uncle" but not my real one he is a "stranger" but still. Can't help it
Mike said he likes me a lot and fu.ck I think he means it in the I-wanna-kiss-you way . I am so fucked up . I hate dramma I don't wanna ruin everything Mike said weare going to keep it secret . What an idiot I am so scared but today is my birthday I am finally 16 now 

Vic opened the door to see SWS . Neck Deep . As It Is . Of Mice & Men and holyfuckinghell Motionless in white but not all of them . I saw Chris Cerruli . Ryan Sitkowski and Vinny Mauro my faves ohmygod  . I run to Mike smiling amd giggling "hide me please! " and He did it i closed my eyes I was behind Mike and  we went somewhere . Few steps away I opened my eyes " holy shit Mike I hate you I said Hide me " i said but everyone was quiet and I was speaking loudly I didn't even notice it

MIW walked forwards me  smiling and I run . I hugged them "I fu.cking love you guys what the fvck" I said popping the 'fvck' word

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That's It for now thanks for the 28 reads :3 I am so excited that You might like it? Leave comments if you like it and If not should I delete it?
Untill next time ......  ByE