One Direction's Spy

Chapter 9

Chapter 9-

I go to my room and grab my gun making sure it is loaded. I put my pocket knife in my pocket and a switch blade in each shoe. I was going to find out the truth no matter what I have to do. Even if it was the last thing I did and it very well might be. I hear a knock on the door and walk calmly to get it. He walks in and I let him get to the other room before I make my move. I grab him and throw him into the wall. “What the hell Jaycee?†he demands. He starts getting up but I put my foot on his throat stopping him. “What the hell is right Jack. So four years now you've been lying to me†I reply my foot pressing on his throat slightly harder. His eyes widen in shock. “What are you talking about?†he asks his voice shaking slightly. “Why was I chosen when I was 15?†I demand. “I don't know what your talking about†he says his voice shaking. His eyes told me he knew. “Jack I thought you were a better spy. Your eyes say different. For once in your miserable life I want you to tell the truth†I yells. I could feel the boys jump. He opens his mouth and then shuts it. I was so far gone. “All these years I have worked side by side with you. I trusted you. We are family. I lost mom and dad and then you betrayed me. They would be so disappointed in you†I say my voice cold and distant. “Jaycee it isn't what they told you†he starts. I let out a bitter laugh. “I remember Uncle Jack. I remember the violence. The beatings. I remember having them attach the equipment to me. I remember not having any control over myself. The machine and Miguel had the control. I am not a pawn Uncle Jack. I will not be a pawn. I am a person. You thought you all could get away with it didn't you? That I would let it control me. When it didn't work that you could just make me forget about it. That you could just wipe my memory and everything could be okay?†I demand. I kick him in the stomach and he falls on his side clutching it. “You thought I would never remember because you knew if I did I would come after all of you†I tell him. I lean down and pull his face until we were inches apart. “You were right. Now I am going to come after all of you†I whisper. His face was scared. I knew there was no going back once I did what I was planning to do. “Don't Jaycee. It doesn't have to be this way. Your not a rogue spy. Your not like them†he says fear leaking out of his every pore. I pull my gun out and click the safety. “You made me like this. You connected me with that- that killing machine. You changed me. Now I want revenge†I tell him as tears leave my eyes. “Jaycee-†“Stand up†I tell him interrupting whatever he had to say. He doesn't move. “Stand up Jack†I say louder. He slowly stands up. “Walk outside†I tell him. He walks out. “I am giving you 10 seconds to get in your car and leave before I shoot you. If you hadn't helped raise me or been related to me you wouldn't get this†I tell him. He opens his mouth. “You only have 10 seconds and I never miss†I tell him. His eyes widen and he starts running. “1-2-3-4-5-10†I whisper. I pull the trigger and watch as it hits him in the back. I knew it wouldn't kill him. I wanted him to tell them I was coming. I wanted all of them to feel fear. Feel the pain I felt. To worry where I might be and what I am going to do. I watch as he picks himself up and gets into the car and drives away. “Its a brand new game†I whisper. “One I can't afford to lose†I mutter. My eyes involuntarily look at the gun in my hand. For years I had used one and it had been a daily essential. “They died saving me. They died trying to keep me from the control. They knew what it would do to me†I whisper. It felt like a blow. Everything was making sense. I wasn't going to let Liam and his band be caught in the cross fire. I knew I had to leave. When it comes down to it I know I would die for them. I just hope it doesn't come down to it.

I stay a week giving them time to feel safe though I don't know how safe they felt with me after seeing what I did. I pull out my bag and start putting my stuff into it. It takes me 10 minutes. I look at the time. It was 2pm. I know I only have to grab the spare guns and knives I had hidden and my ipad along with my laptop. I pull on my tight black leather pants. I could move around in them easily. Most spies have them. I pull on my black spaghetti strap and my black leather heeled boots. I grab my gray hooded sweater and pull it on. I grab my bag as I walk to the living room. All the lads were there with Paul. I put my laptop and ipad in my bag. They watch as I put the spare weapons in my bag. I put my gun in my holster and attach it to my pants. I slide a switch blade into each boot. I push my sleeves up to my elbows as I attach my spy watch to my wrist. “What are you doing Jaycee?†Liam asks. I could tell by his voice he had it figured out but was hoping it wasn't true. “You have figured out the answer Liam so why ask?†I reply. I grab my sunglasses that had access to amazing technology. It could locate heat sources in buildings, find guns and do facial recognition. “Why?†that one word held so much emotion it nearly knocked over my calm, distant facade. “I am a liability to your safety Liam. I shall not be the reason you die†I reply. Liam walks up to me tears in his eyes. “Please no†he whispers. I grab his face in my hands as I look up at him. “Liam all the things I never told you and lied to you about I am sorry. They died protecting me and I will gladly die protecting you. There is so much I should of told you and it took me this long to realize that I should of told you them†I tell him as I wipe a few tears that escaped his eyes. “Like what?†he asks. I pull away from him and stand at the window looking out at the waves as they crash onto the shore. It was sad I couldn't even look my best friend in the eye or look at him at all. The disgust of what I am was unbearable but he deserved to know the truth. “The girl last night. I knew her. She was working for the government 3 years ago. They trained her†I tell them. I hear a few gasps. “Why did she try to kill us?†Zayn asks. “She left the government. Their way-†I pause trying to get a hold of myself. “Their way of training isn't normal and few live through it. She didn't like the way they worked and when her father died she turned against them. They had nothing to hold her to her job. Nothing they could use to force her to work for themâ€. “What happened to you? Why are there so many secrets?†Liam asks. I knew he was going to ask. “All those years ago the government was plotting ways to stop crimes and war. A man named Miguel Torrez came up with the idea of a young person with extraordinary skills mixed with technology could change everything. The government agreed upon it and searched for years for the child to bear this gift. Miguel Torrez chose me. My parents wouldn't let him. They didn't want me to have anything to do with it. They saw the dangers of it. Miguel had specific reasons for choosing me. He never accepted that my dad was my dad†I pause letting it sink in. “Why didn't he?†Liam's voice sounded strained. “The same month my mum and dad fell in love she had been dating Miguel. She left him for my father. My mum slept with both of them that month. Weeks apart though. They got married after I was born. Miguel was the man who killed them. He didn't want to kill my mother but he felt he had to knowing she would never stay with him. Uncle Jack knew and gave permission for me to be the one to have the experience. I didn't want it and tried to stop it but I was forced. It ended badly and I couldn't stop it†I tell them as tears flow out of my eyes. “What happened?†Zayn asks. Tears come to my eyes in remembrance. “It was strong. The technology was so advanced it had a mind of its own. I was to be the one in control but I wasn't. We were to bond together and help the world but it didn't end that way. Miguel and the technology had the control. I was a pawn in their sick games. When I realized the technology that was being used I tried to leave. I figured out what it was capable of. It had the control and it made the decisions. The equipment was many things. There was a part that connected to your head. A part around my whole body. I couldn't of stopped it if I tried†tears come into my eyes at the memory. “All control was lost. What little we had was gone and it had a mind of its own. The missions they made us. That thing and I combined go on were terrible. It was all about them being above everyone and killing people. When we lost control over it people died. It was worse then when we had control. It was almost unstoppable. When we finally turned it off they thought it was best that it was forgotten. I knew their ways and they would continue trying to make a new prototype of it using its flaws to flip it. They thought I would let it control me and then when it didn't work that I would forget and continue my work for them†I let out a bitter laugh as I stare out at the waves. “They realized it would be better for them to make me forget. They held me down and jabbed a syringe into me. It made me forget all of it. The people who were killed and the things I ended up doing. It was sickâ€. I sign as I look at the waves wishing I was free. “The training they put me through was torture. Literally. I would be strapped to a chair and beat. Yelling for me to be stronger. They threatened me and tortured for information about Liam. It disappointed them severely when I didn't give them any information. They would of used you as leverage†I tell them. I could feel them stiffen and their fear. “They threatened to kill you if I went out of line. I couldn't leave. I had to many enemies. I couldn't live my life trying to hide from the government. Well part of the government. I was forced to do jobs I never wanted to do. I had to kill innocent and bad people. I couldn't of stopped it if I tried. I barely sleep because I see the things I have done. They replay in my mind. I still wake up screaming because of my memories. I have nightmares about people I killed when I was 13†I trail off. The tears wouldn't stop. If only it was all just a dream. “They have kept an eye on me hoping one day I will go out of line. They want to hurt me. Half the people I put in jail they have taken out with a secret deal for them to work off the books†I say as tears just keep flowing down. “I was tortured so many times to keep you safe Liam. It hurt like hell but seeing you happy made it all worth it. Telling you anything would ruin your ignorance. I was so jealous of it. You are so innocent and I never was. I knew so many things and if they weren't using me as a pawn I would be dead. They are capable of so much. They made me forget one of the most traumatic tines of my life. It has always been a game to half the spies and the people who control us. Its the spy game and we never win†I finish. I couldn't move. I couldn't look at them. The technology and I would always be connected. I never understood how in the last few years I had changed so much. How automatic the killing and everything was for me. Being able to remember gave me no reassurance. Who ever said it was right ignorance is bliss. I always knew something wasn't right. What was I suppose to do? Start killing government officials for information? Yeah right. I was on a tight leash. I wouldn't be the reason people I cared for died. “Why? Why did you go through that for me?†Liam asks his voice shaking. I felt myself tense and I knew it was visible. I didn't like talking about feelings or emotions. “Liam. You are different. Special. I never would of let you go through that†I reply. “It would have been easier on you. They wouldn't of hurt you so much†he says quietly. “Easier? Maybe. You were so innocent. I wouldn't let them hurt you. I wouldn't be able to. You were the first and only person I opened up to like that Liam. I never cared and when you weren't there I barely did. If it came down to it. I would of died for you†I say quietly. The others were so quiet. “And I still would†I add just a little louder. “How could you say that? I'm not even worth it†Liam yells angrily. I never knew Liam to be so insecure. He was always strong. “Easily. Liam people all over the world love you. Your smart, funny, patient, caring and you have the biggest heart. Your fans love you for being you. All you had to do was be yourself. You did something no one else could. You convinced me to let you in without trying. Do you have any idea how many people tried to? So many people. I let you in and you never not once let me down. Thats how I could say that. Never say your not worth it because millions of people could say other wise†I say upset he would doubt himself. I turn around and grab Liam by the shoulders. “Liam, your my best friend and we have been through so much together. It is my fault this is happening to you. You don't deserve this. Never downgrade yourself again. You're above them all. You have the biggest heart in the world and I don't deserve you being my best friend. Keep doing what you do best. Watch over Dani and never let her go. Love her with all your might. Don't lose her. Tell her I am sorry for any pain I caused. That I said no matter how much you are hurting not to let you push her away. She is the best girl friend I ever had. You mean everything to me. I love you Li never forget that†I tell him as tears come to my eyes. I never stopped looking into his eyes the whole time. I grab my bag and throw it on my shoulder as I leave. I could never go back now. I've already started something I can't stop.