December 18, 7:00 pm
It's been a week since I have seen or talked to anyone from New York, not because they don't want to talk to me, just because it's too hard for me knowing that I'll never see them again. It's been a few days since I've moved into my new house and I'm rarely ever there, not because I can't be, just because it's hard to hate it (which I'm trying to convince my mom I do). I want to go back to New York, but I don't think that's going to happen, I've tried everything : crying pleading calling my dad,yes my dad, but nothing works, so now I'm trying to hate my house to make my self miserable it doesn't make sense I know, a lot of things I do don't make sense.
"I'm going out mom." See my mom isn't like regular moms so I can basically come and go as I please. "Ok honey do you need any money? Oh and don't forget to layer your clothes!" Hmmm "I won't! And Nope." I decide and leave my house.
It's so cold out here maybe I should go get an extra jacket. No I don't want to hear I told you so from my mom, besides I won't be out long, I know exactly where I'm going. I've been keeping my eye on the little coffee shop a couple blocks from my house. It looks exactly like the one I used to go to in New York except there aren't as many people crowding the lobby. Today is the day I'm finally going to check it out. I'm close now I think, as soon as I see the soft purple sign advertising some new kind of coffee I know I'll be there. I've been walking for at least fifteen minutes so I should be cl- there it is. As I'm about to go in I stop myself, I want to but I can't. What if I get anxious knowing I can't go back to my home. What if the snow piles up and I can't get out what if- someone interrupts my thoughts "Are you coming in or just letting the cold air in?" Oh no I didn't realize I was holding the door wide open. "I'm uh I'm coming in." I say. I look up and standing right in front of my eyes is the most beautiful boy I've ever seen, he's smiling at me oh my God he must think I'm an idiot. But his smile. "I'm Josh" he says. "Hi Josh I'm Kaylie." I reply. "You're intimidated by my good looks, that's why you wouldn't come in." Wait what? "Excuse you? I'll have you know the reason I- "I'm just kidding!" He says with his beautiful smile. "Come in and sit down." And that's just what I'd do
