I was getting loads of hate from Rubys fans.
Usually they don't hurt but when they started saying that i would never make Ruby happy and she could do so much better I believed them.
But right now as Ruby was filming a movie I was at home in the bathroom.
I was staring at yourself, wondering,
How someone so beautiful could be with me.
I heard the door open and close as I tried to open the pill bottle.
"Hey Y-WHAT ARE YOU DOING." I hear as Nina steps into the bathroom as I'm trying to open up the bottle.
"I can't open it." I say and she grabs it out of my hands and it busts open, the pills going everywhere.
"What did you do!!" I yelled at her and got in her face as Ruby walked in and pulled me in her arms.
"I want to die." I sob and I feel rubys chest jerk up and down as she crys.
Nina just stands there,
"Baby, why would you want to die?" Ruby asks as she pulls away from me and grabs my face.
Tears running down that beautiful face, "I'll never make you happy." I say and her lips quiver.
"You always make me happy. Where did this come from?"
"My Instagram, every picture I have of us somebody says that I was never good enough for someone like you and I never made you happy." I sobbed and buried my head in her chest.
"Baby, you are more than good enough. Why are you letting them get to you. They only see what's on their screen. They can't see you from my point of view. I love you, what was I going to do if I found you in here dead. Laying on the floor." She said as I pulled away and she bursted into tears, "I'm sorry." I whimper and she lays against the tub and makes me lay on her.
"You can't leave me." She said and I nodded and buried my face into her neck smelling her perfume.
"You can't either." I say and she kisses my forehead and tells Nina, "thank you."
"No problem." She says and walked out after she cleaned up the pills.
Ruby started the tub and undressed me and her.
She got in and cuddled me to her chest.
"I can't believe I just tried to do that." I say and mess with the necklace around her neck.
"I'm glad Nina stopped you." She said softly and pulled me closer as she ran her hands through my hair.
I was so relaxed and calm now that I fell asleep to her whispering words into my ear like,
Your so beautiful
I'm glad we are together
Please don't leave me
I love you so much babygirl.
All those things made me feel tingly and guilty at the same time.
I can't ever leave her, but why would I let people who don't know me get to me. Just because I'm with someone they possibly can't have?
