That's the problem.
I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about contentment.
I don't know how to feel content.
I'm.. happy?
No. I almost feel like bursting into tears.
I'm sad?
No. I'm too happy to feel sad.
Do you see my dilemma? Right now, my level of emotion on a scale from ecstatic to depressed is a big ZERO.
But I should be happy, even though I don't feel like I can..
I almost feel it. I look into his eyes, and I feel love. So much love that it hurts me.
When I say it hurts me, I do mean physically. I ache every time he looks away.
I'm too attached, and that combined with conflicting emotions or lack thereof is a very... interesting ?...thing.
I'm confused.. I'm in love.. and I'm in pain. And I cant tell if I'm miserable or extremely happy.
All of that seems to depend on some sort of self-UNawareness. I need to somehow get back in touch..
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Thoughts
RandomJust a random collection of things that I would feel strange saying out loud, and also just 3am rants and thoughts. Pretty much a journal, but please read.
