Call Me Crazy (A Bechloe Fanfiction)

Chapter 12

Beca and Chloe were sitting in an uber when Chloe's breathing started getting faster and unsteady before she started crying. Beca immediately sat up, realizing something was wrong. "Chloe, babe, what's wrong?"

"The voices," she sobbed. "We're gonna die Beca, they want us to die."

The uber driver glanced into the mirror. "Is she ok?" He asked nervously.

"She has schizophrenia," Beca explained. "So she hears voices and has hallucinations sometimes and it's all very real and frightening to her."

"Do you need me to pull over?" He asked.

Beca glanced over at Chloe who was still breathing heavily with her knees to her chest. Her eyes were squeezed shut and she was mumbling incoherent things. "Yeah, if you can," she said anxiously. He pulled over and Beca got out of the car before going to Chloe's side and opening the door for her. "Chlo, babe, can you get out of the car and walk for me?"

Chloe nodded and slowly got out of the car, grasping onto Beca. Beca smiled thankfully at the uber driver. "Thanks so much. You can just leave if you want, it's gonna take awhile to calm her down," she said.

"Ok, no problem," he replied.

Beca led Chloe over to a bench and sat her down. "Tell me what they're saying, Chlo."

Chloe was looking anxiously around, still not saying anything to Beca.

Beca wrapped an arm around Chloe. "Baby, you need to look at me, tell me what they're saying."

Chloe finally glanced up at Beca with so much fear in her eyes. "They told me we were gonna die in that car."

Beca gave a hug and a kiss to Chloe. "It's ok, we're not in there anymore."

Chloe nodded, taking a deep breath. "Can we walk please?"

"Of course, babe," Beca replied. "Are you ready? Or do you need a minute?"

"I'm ready," Chloe whispered, standing up and grabbing Beca's hand. "I'm sorry."

"For what babe?" Beca asked softly.

"For not being able to do anything normal," Chloe shrugged. "For being a complete embarrassment all the time."

"Nothing to apologize for, babe," Beca said with a smile. "I'm not embarrassed by you. You're so strong and brave and I'm so proud of you. You can't help that you have episodes and attacks."

"How are you even still with me?" Chloe asked. "You're so beautiful and smart and you have your life together and I'm a mess."

"You're not a mess, Chlo," Beca said. "And even if you were, you'd be my mess. I love you, don't ever think I don't."

"I love you too," Chloe replied. "Where are we headed?"

"Millennium park so we can see the bean and then we'll walk across the bridge and go to Maggie Daley park and there's a really nice playground there."

"Why are we going to a playground again?" Chloe asked with a laugh.

"Because it's apparently really cool and I wanna see it."

Chloe laughed as they crossed the street into the park. "Wait can we go inside that thing?" She asked, pointing to the bean.

"The bean? Oh yeah!" Beca said. "Come on!" She grabbed Chloe's hand and they ran until they were walking through the bean.

"Oh my god Beca this is so cool!" Chloe said excitedly.

Beca laughed. "Let's go to the other park, we'll have to come back to get to the mall tomorrow."

"Ok," Chloe said, taking Beca's hand again. They walked across the bridge and Chloe looked around at everything there. "I love it here."

"Me too," Beca said. "Do you remember when we met and I said that I was attached to Atlanta?"

"Yeah," Chloe said.

"I realized I'm not," Beca said. "I'm attached to you. You're home now."

"Aww Beca," Chloe said softly, "you're so sweet."

"It's true," Beca said.

"Oh my god, this park!" Chloe said as it finally emerged from behind the trees. "It's so cool!"

"Yeah!" Beca said. "It's so great for kids."

"Hey Beca?" Chloe asked. "Do you think we could have kids one day?"

"I think we should have kids one day," Beca said. "And then we could take them here."

"Yeah, but I mean we'd have to settle down and get married first, and move out of the apartment and get a house," Chloe said.

"Yeah," Beca said. "Yeah of course." She paused for a second and looked back up at Chloe. "How would you feel about moving here?"

"It'd be great!" Chloe said. "Although I want to finish law school at some point."

"There's great law programs around here!" Beca said.

"Then I'm in!" Chloe said happily.

"Great! We'll start looking for places when we get home!" Beca said excitedly. She suddenly glanced up. "Wait...this is gonna be so hard for you. Your family's in Georgia, I don't want to take you away from them."

"And we're gonna be starting a family here," Chloe said. "And me and Allie will stay in touch. Trust me, I want to do this."

"I know change is hard for you Chlo, I don't want to put too much stress on you and have it trigger an episode."

"Beca I'm gonna be fine," Chloe said. "You're home, you're family."

Beca smiled softly at those words. "I just don't want to do anything that will make your schizophrenia flare up. I know change can sometimes trigger it."

"Stop going all psychiatric on me," Chloe said with a laugh. "I'll be fine. The entire world could change in the blink of an eye but as long as you're there, I'm gonna be fine, better than fine."

Beca smiled. "You're amazing Chlo."

"You make me amazing," Chloe laughed. "I can totally see our kids playing at this park one day."

"Do you want to adopt or get a sperm donor?" Beca asked. "I mean I know we're not making any decisions until we've settled down but still."

"I want to get a donor, but I doubt I'd be able to carry a baby because of all the meds," Chloe said sadly.

"Hey, it's ok," Beca said. "We'll try our best to do whatever you want."

Chloe smiled. "I can't wait for our future."

"Me either," Beca replied happily. She knew they were talking about things a little too far in the future but keeping Chloe's hopes up was important to her, especially after all she'd been though. Maybe things were moving a little too fast, but it was for the best.