Call Me Crazy (A Bechloe Fanfiction)

Chapter 6

Beca came back at four and went up to Chloe's room. "Hey! Are you excited?"

"More like nervous," Chloe replied anxiously.

"It'll be fine, Chlo," Beca said with a sympathetic smile. "Why don't you think it will go well?"

"Because we haven't talked in 6 months and that's so unlike us. I know things have changed between us, she's hardly my sister anymore. She's afraid of me, Becs. I want her to love me but she doesn't anymore."

Beca sat down on Chloe's bed and grabbed her hand. "Chlo, I know you guys aren't close anymore, but I promise she still loves you. And I get that she's a little afraid. Aren't you sometimes afraid when you have an episode?"

"Yeah, I'm terrified because part of my mind knows it's not me who goes insane and gets all violent and scary."

"Yeah Chlo, it's scary sometimes," Beca replied gently. "Same with me, when I went through this, my mom didn't come to visit at all because she was afraid. She told me when I came back that it scared her to see me suffering so much. Maybe she's not afraid of you, maybe she's just afraid to see you suffer."

"I guess that's true. I just wish she hadn't have distanced herself so much, it'll make it so much harder to get back to where we used to be."

"It'll be tough, but you'll be fine. I'm just as close with my mom as I was before, we just live really far away from each other."

"Why don't you move back to Chicago?"

"I've thought about it, but I'm kinda attached to this place now. I know a lot of people and I love my job here. I mean if I didn't live here, I would've never met you, and that would have really sucked."

Chloe cracked a small smile at Beca. "Yeah, it would've. Oh I think she's here," she said, getting up to answer the door. "Allie!" Chloe said, pulling the younger girl into a hug.

"Hey Chlo!" Allie said, hugging her back. "I've missed you so much!"

"I've missed you too," Chloe replied. "Oh, um this is my therapist, Beca."

Beca smiled at the girl who looked like a younger version of Chloe. "Hi!"

"Oh hi!" Allie said.

"Alright, I'll leave you two to talk," Beca said, giving Chloe a small smile.

Chloe smiled at her sister and sat down on the bed across from her sister. "So how have you been?"

"Good, how about you?" Allie replied.

"Good." Chloe paused and smiled awkwardly at her little sister. A few more seconds of awkward silence came up. Chloe finally spoke up. "Allie, this isn't us, not talking like this."

"I know it's not, I just don't know what to say?" Allie mumbled. "Im sorry Chlo."

"For what?" Chloe asked, surprised and confused at what her sister did.

"For not visiting, for being so distant from you. I feel so awful, Chloe. You really needed me and I wasn't there for you." Allie sighed and her eyes filled with tears. "You've been in this place for a month now, only five minutes from my school and I haven't even visited until now. I'm a horrible sister."

"Allie, it's fine," Chloe replied with a sympathetic smile. "I mean it hurt a little but I was fine. Can I just ask why?"

Allie took a deep breath and looked back up at her older sister. "Ever since you've been diagnosed, it just really freaked me out. I'm just afraid I guess. And I promise I'm not afraid of you, but I don't really know what I'm afraid of. I've always been just like you, and I'm just really scared this is gonna happen to me. And I am a little afraid when you have your episodes, but it's not you, I know it's the illness, but it's terrifying. I know the girl I oscreaming and crying and throwing things around isn't you, but it's scary."

"It's scary for me too," Chloe replied sadly. "I was telling Beca, I know that girl that's completely lost it and is being all violent isn't me, but I can't do anything about it. I bet it's even scarier for you, but I promise I'm so much better now. They have me on the right meds and I have Beca now and she's amazing. I can tell her anything and she'll be there to listen."

"You and Beca seem like really good friends," Allie replied with a smile. "I'm glad you finally have someone to talk to. I know it was hard going to me and mom or dad for help."

"Yeah, I really like Beca, she's great," Chloe replied. "She's the only therapist I've had that's listened to me."

"That's great Chlo! I'm happy for you. So are you gonna go back to law school next week when you get out of here?"

"I dropped out when I got admitted here," Chloe replied with a sigh. "And I didn't want to move back home because it's so far from Beca and-"

"Wait....I know that look....Chlo, do you have a crush on Beca?"

Chloe smiled. "Ok maybe a little, but I don't even know if she's into girls. I just came out a few years ago and I'm still kinda weird with the fact that it's ok for me to like girls so I'm not gonna rush into things."

"Yeah, that sounds like a good idea. I think she likes you back too, though! I can see it in her eyes every time she looks at you."

"That's what I've thought!" Chloe said. "Oh so anyway, I'm moving in with Beca because she said she's been looking for a roommate and I'm like her best friend."

"That's so awesome! How long have you known her for? You seem really comfortable with her."

"Only 3 weeks, and it's crazy because at first I wouldn't even make eye contact with her and now we're like best friends. She's just so easy to talk to and have a conversation with, plus she's a good listener and the nicest person in the world." Chloe smiled at her little sister. "Am I in love?"

"I think so!" Allie squealed.

"Oh how are things going with Luke?"

"Ugh having a boyfriend is a lot of work," Allie said. "I have to go on a date with him in like a half hour and I'm so exhausted from class."

Chloe cracked a smile at her little sister. "They do that to you sometimes," she replied with a laugh. "Where are you guys going?"

"Some restaurant called Mariah's. I think it's a diner style place, I don't really know."

"Oh I've been there before! It's like a 25 minutes away, you better get going," Chloe said. "Have fun!"

"Thanks Chlo! I promise I'll call more often and visit too. I'm so glad you're doing better."

"Thanks Al, I love you."

"I love you too, see you!" Allie said right before she closed the door behind her.

Chloe was so happy she was able to spend time with her little sister again, and she really hoped they would stay close.