High School Love Story

Chapter Ten: Mila

July 29, 2014

God, I'm sore.

I'll admit, sleeping with Alec probably wasn't my best idea ever, but I had done it, and the past is the past. Forgive me Lord. I was pretty mad at myself, I talked poorly of people having sex all the time, and now I had gone and done it. I texted John: Hey, you got a second? John was always there, he'll understand.

John: What's up?

Me: I did something bad..

John: What's wrong, pretty girl?

Me: Well, don't get mad

John: Uhm, Okay?

Me: Well, I had sex with Alec...

Silence.

Literal, and figurative.

It took ten minutes for him to text me back, when the other texts had been no more than 12 seconds apart.

John: Why would you do that?

Me: I know, I made a big mistake

John: Mistake? Dropping your phone is a mistake. This, this is just. I don't even know, Mila. What is your problem?

Good question

Me: I'm sorry, why are you mad though, like I get that you love me or whatever, but damn.

John: I'm not mad at you, Mila. I'm disappointed. I'll see you later.

Me: Okay... well, text me when you aren't mad.

John: Don't hold your breath.

And just like that, the guy that paid for my phone to get fixed so we could talk. The guy that would ask me to talk on the phone because he wanted to hear my voice. The guy that loved me, even though I was rude to him every time I was in a bad mood, was gone.

I must have really messed up.

Present Day

"What do you mean he saw me naked?!"

I was furious with Alec, who had just told me that he had accidentally shown my nudes to John. We were at Subway, not because we were hanging out, but we had seen each other in there, and had decided to eat together.

"I mean, it's probably not the first time" he responded.

You freaking asshole

"And how do you figure" I was actually pretty angry about this.

"Well, Mila, I mean, when you send nudes to all his friends, it's bound to get back to him. I mean, remember when we were all trying to stop him from talking to you. It's the same thing."

"I trusted you to keep those private! I trusted everybody else too"

"Well who didn't know that. And they aren't private when you show everybody, just saying."

With that, he left. I stayed seated, thinking. I needed better friends.

He didn't have the right to say those things about me. I was no whore. I mean yeah I liked sex, but come on, who doesn't? Sex with Alec was the bomb too. I mean, but still. I expected him to keep those pictures private. They were supposed to be for his eyes only. And they're supposed to be for your eyes only. Oh well, I get to chose who I show my body too.