My Older Cheating Alpha Mate

This Is War

Natalie POV:

Luis told me I had to meet him in his office early in the morning which I really don't like at all, he said to come at exactly at 6 in the morning, I'm pretty pissed that he said 6 in the morning but I ignore him, and woke up at whatever time I want to wake up so ladies and gentlemen I woke up at exactly at 12 in the afternoon, to piss him off but also I was watching Supernatural,I'm really behind on Supernatural I'm on Season 7 so I need to catch up before Season 12 comes out, don't you think Dean is really hot as hell, how about Sam? he is hot but adorable, Castiel is so cute, I wouldn't mind them hunting me down. As I got closer to Luis office I heard moaning and grunting which can only me one thing, Luis is fucking a slut in his office my wolf Jasmine howl in pain as I roll my eyes. 

 "Are you seriously howling in pain for this piece of shit?" I ask my wolf Jasmine in my mind as my wolf Jasmine howl even more saying "of course Natalie he is our mate after all, he is betraying us"  I laugh as she said that "look he isn't betraying us ,he is betraying you, not me, I don't think of him as my mate no more,oh wait he wasn't my mate ,he was just my second chance mate who is our mate's murder, remember Ryan? Our mate? Our future?, I can't believe you've forgotten about him!, think of who you really love first then complain to me"  I told her as my wolf  Jasmine began to say something I wish she wouldn't say "our mate is dead! Ryan is dead! He'll never come back to us! His tombstone is proof  that he is dead!"  is what she told me as I look down knowing it was true but I told her "just because he is dead doesn't mean we can't get revenge, you did love him right? I mean you still do, don't you?" I ask her as I know Jasmine who is caged inside my mind looking down, she said "how can you love someone who is dead?, how can I love him if he is dead?, tell me Natalie how I can still love him?, how can I love a dead person?."

Looking down I knew she was right but at the same time she is wrong I told her "You are wrong Jasmine even if the person you love is dead, even if he isn't here physically , even if I can't hear him telling me "I love you" everyday, even if I miss him every fucken day, I will still love him forever, I still have memories of him, I have pictures of him, I still have him in my heart" I told her as she stay silent as I knew I was crying I miss Ryan so much but crying won't get me anywhere as I wipe my tears I saw someone standing in front of me and by the scent, I knew it was Luis, I saw Luis looking at me guilt as I gave him a glare, "I'm here so what do you want with me? I see you were having fun this afternoon" I said, he look down as he said "I'm sorry for what I did, it won't happen again, I won't sleep with anyone else I promise, just don't cry" he stroke my cheek as I slap it away. "Don't fucken touch me!, I'm not crying because you fuck someone, I knew you've been doing it even when we were mates, I just need to know what you want from me, I came just like you said" I said.

Luis look hurt as I slap his hand away but he still had guilt in his eyes, I look at him with hatred as I sigh, "Are you going to let me in? Or are we just going to be standing here all day?" I ask as he sigh moving in the gesturing with his to come in, as I enter his office, I saw the same old bookshelf, his brown new desk still clean and new, the soft yet firm chairs are still there, the gray dusty cabinet with all the files of the pack members, I sat down as he sat in his big wheel chair, he  look at me serious as I gave a blank stare, he cough as I felt through the mate bond that he was nervous. "Um Natalie, first off I'm sorry, for all I did, for cheating on you, for being a bad mate, for treating you so badly, I want to make it up to you, I want you to give me a second chance, a second chance of being your mate, I promise I'll make it up to you, I'll cherish you, I'll love you, I won't cheat no more, I'll make you happy, I won't make you sad, so what do you say?" he said, I gave him the 'are you stupid look', "are you serious!? You gave me that bullshit of  speech many times, many times I believe you, many times forgave you because I honestly thought you would change!, but did you change?, no you didn't! you kept cheating on me, you kept treating me like shit!, me being the pendeja always forgave you, I thought you would change for me, I thought I could I love you but I was wrong because I can't love a monster , I can't love my mate's murder, I forever love Ryan."

"You can't be serious Natalie! You still love me! you don't mean anything you said!, I am your mate!, your suppose to love me!, not Ryan but ME!  I won't let you go, you'll forever stay by my side, you'll be my Luna, you will bear my pups, you don't have a choice!" he said, I laugh as I slap him really hard, his wolf will be pissed for me disrespecting him, but this is my life, "I will do no such thing as what you told me, I will live my life however I want to, this is my life I will control it not you, I am not your property, your a piece of shit you know that?" he look shock at what I just yell at him, he look even more hurt, stupid mate bond, he said "please give me a chance" I look into his eyes seeing he was telling the truth but I laugh because why would I forgive this bastard?, he will cheat on me again, besides he is probably faking it, I shook my head "no I will never give you another chance, I will never forgive you, you kill my mate then you kept  cheating on me even when I forgave you, I don't want to be Luna of this pack, I don't want to be your mate no more, I Natalie Lopez, reject Luis Black as my mate and I reject being your Luna" I felt the pain run through my body, I don't care if my wolf doesn't agree, it will help her feel no pain no more, yet I felt strong after. 

"I declare war on your pack Luis,for revenge also let's see who is going to be the last one standing in this war, you or me?" Luis look up at me with hate and madness as he started laughing "darling I would love to see you try, with what pack or army your going to fight against me?" I smirk grabbing his chin "I'll take some of your pack members, I heard some of the women don't like how you treat them, maybe some of your soldiers who hate that you treat them so badly, you hardly give them a break to see their families or mates, this is war Luis, so start thinking of me as a threat" I walk out of his office, I grab the pack of clothes I have in my backpack and go outside, knowing everybody is busy to see me leave as I run to the forest I look back and say "Voy a volver mis pequeños lobos" then ran off to start my new life and to find a territory to start my pack, I wonder how will this turn out, will there be some surprise for me in this journey?.