Blank Space

Chapter 24 : I Hate U I Love U

"When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong"
-GNash ft Oli-

Jessica POV

I wake up to the sunlight shine on my face. I slowly open my eyes and groan because I still wanna sleep since I'm not a morning person.

Suddenly I felt someone moving beside me and realize it was Jon. He look peacefully sleep and I can even hear his little snores out. I smile looking at him and remember about what had happen last night.

He act so vulnerable last night I can tell and I never saw that side of him before. I don't know how to calm him down so I kiss him.

I kiss him and it turn out to be more than that. I can't describe how I felt last night. Everything was happen so fast than I expected.

After his match last night with Brock I was about to meet him and say something to cool him since I know he will be frustrated after loose to him. Beside, I was also about to give him the answer he asked for. I'm about to say yes. But then I saw how mad he was about loosing his match. He looked very furious and scared me a lot. I was froze at my feet and can't move a muscle until he realize I was there. Maybe he saw how scared I am before leave me there.

And now I don't know what to do when he's awake. I sigh at my own thought before decided to go clean up my self.

I look around and realize it wasn't my room and my things wasn't here so I pick up my underwear and grab one of his merchandise T-shirt before bring the towel with me.

As I finish my morning routine I put his clothes on and might I told you that it was too big until it stop before my knee. After finish drying my hair a bit using the towel I took a deep breath before went back to the bedroom.

I open the door slowly so that it didn't make a noise just in case he still asleep. Then I saw him sitting at the end of the bed. He look some what frustrated and didn't realize I was here.

"Hey!" I spoke softly making him startled as he look at me surprisedly.

"Are you okay?" I asked as he still look at me like he wasn't expecting me to be here.

"Yeah!" He said as he realize he was staring at me for too long.

"Are you sure? Cause you look like you're not!" I said as I sit beside him.

"I'm okay! It just that..." he silent for awhile before look outside again.

"Just what?"

"I thought you left!" He replied.

"Why did you thought that?" I'm getting curious.

"I mean after what happen last night. You see me out of control from my anger and you get scared of me. Then things turn the opposite way and we... ya know!" He answer.

"I'm sorry if you mad at me for that. I know it kind of selfish but I just can't help it last night. I really need you and you we're there. I know we're not a thing or might not gonna be I guess so you can hate me all the way you want and I..." he explained his feeling and I realize how sweet he can be sometime so I kiss him too stop him from rumbling things out.

He must be startled with my action as he didn't kiss me back. I pull away from him and smile look at him.

"Who said we're not gonna be a thing?" I smirk.

"You still didn't say yes too me" he replied.

"Because you didn't give me chances to answer it yesterday!" I answer.

"There's no point talking about this if your answer is a no you know!" He sigh.

"If I was about to say no to you yesterday, I will not gonna follow you back here. I will not gonna comfort yourself like last night and probably what ever event happen last night between us wouldn't happened Jon! So now you know the answer. That's why I didn't leave you this morning" I answer him as he look at me in disbelief.

"Well... uhm... I thought...!"

"Well you thought wrong Jon!" I chuckle.

"So is this make you and me... like together?" He asked again.

"Yes Jon! You can said I'm your girlfriend if you want!" I replied shyly and he smile listen to it.

"Yes I would like to say that Jessica Jordan is my girlfriend!" He stated causing me to blush I guess as I felt my cheek turn hot.

"Are you blushing? Did my girlfriend blushing heard me saying things to her!" He said playfully make me chuckle heard it.

"Damn! it sound good to said that you were mine!" He added make me look away from him before he put his finger on my chin and make me look at him again.

"Don't ever hide that beautiful face of yours away from me sweetheart!" He said in his sexy husky morning voice make me smile again.

"Did you know you look good in those T's of mine!" He said before connecting our lips together causing me to smile in between the kiss.

"You know what? You should be done talking and put your clothes on. Tonight is raw and you need to go to the gym while I need to pack my shit before went back to the studio this afternoon" I said to him before stand up. He grab my wrist and drag me to him causing me to sit at his lap. Considering that he still not wearing anything under the sheet that cover his friend, it felt a little bit awkward to be in this position.

"I'm not gonna be on raw tonight! Hunter called me earlier while you in the bathroom" he said while put some of the strand of my hair behind my ear.

"Okay! But still I gotta to go!" I said looking at him.

"So you just gonna leave your new boyfriend like this?" He asked.

"What else can I do?" I shrugs as I know that I can't change my schedule. Then he look at me smirking and instantly I know what he's implying to.

"No Jon! Uh uh!" I shook my head!"

"Oh yeah?" He said before kissing me and slowly going down to my neck.

I can't help is as I let a moan escape my mouth.

But before he could go lower than that I I found a courage to push him away.

"Jon stop!" I sigh.

"I can't do this okay! Not even after last night" I breath causing him to chuckle sarcastically.

"Are you saying last night was a mistake?" He look at me sternly.

"No Jon! That not what I mean!" I stand up from his lap.

"This is just too much for me too handle okay! I had think about my decision again and again until I decided to take a baby step to move on with you. But things turn to happen fast than I thought last night!" I explain to him.

"Please understand my position Jon! I'm still wounded from my past and it's killing me. I already warn you before that you might get hurt too if you with me. And look where it's take us now! One minute we're okay and now what?" I'm getting frustrated as he still sit silent there.

"I'm sorry Jon! I think we need to cool our self off first before we talk again. Only if you wanted too. You know you can call me" I said before I leave him.

I was so frustrated with him. This is so sad. Why does my though about him always wrong? As I walk down to my room I can feel my cheek getting wet as tears escape from my eyes. And at this time I realise I had fall for him so fast than I ever thought I would be.

Thank you for 2.5 k viewers