Thoughts and Stuff

Longest and Most Important

I'm sorry to bother you
I'll make it quick
I know he's there too
But he's a prick
I called cause I'm drunk
He's not rock he's not punk
It's just such a waste
I just want a taste
I can't stand to see perfection
Treated like such garbage
I want to be your protection
Keep you from getting tarnished
And if you're mad
I'll be your punching bag
And if you're sad
I'll be your doll to drag
You can yell at me
When you're angry
I know you've been starving
But I wouldn't put you through that shit
I'll be your pumpkin for carving
I'll be the target you can hit
We'll both get something out of it
I swear I don't mind it any bit
I'll take it all
I'll take the fall
I want to guard you from the pains
Of this world
I know too well
I want to be your shelter when it rains
I've been hurled
Into this Hell
Watching you be mistreated
It really gets me heated
And I'm on fire tonight
But I'm losing all my fight
You are the center of my universe
My biggest blessing and biggest curse
Yeah I'm cursed
But you come first
So will you be my drug
Will you be my Love
I may be more feminine
But so was Cobain
Maybe I'll die at 27
And then
We'll live again
And I'll leave you in pain
And leave you insane
Just like Kurt
And become the dirt
Beneath your feet
It's all I wanna be
Beat me out of me
Be my Courtney
You're so damn Lovely
And he's so lucky
Maybe I'll die at 27
Maybe we'll have a chance in Heaven
I know I've won the war
But still I want some more
I'm addicted
Don't you know
Can't be restricted
No no no
I'll probably burn out
But I want to fade away with you
I know how this will turn out
Just beat me black and blue
And I'm so insecure
I can't be what you're looking for
I wish love were easy
I wish it were acceptable
It's not easy for me
But you're exceptional
My ultimate goal
Is to look like I'm on drugs
I will fade away slow
Despite all your hugs
Because they're not enough
I need your love
I know this will end
With me as your friend
And that's not anyone's fault
I'm happy that you're loyal
But it seems I am caught
Burning hot to a boil
I will evaporate
You are my soul mate