Innocent Beautiful Love

I can hear the bells

I laid awake wondering what Chris was doing I thought maybe he too was sleepless. Everyone kept saying tomorrow is the big day you youngsters relax but you definitely need to rest, I kept wondering how can I rest I'm so nervous. Tomorrow I will be Mrs Saunders the thought sent shivers through me. What's worse was after confiding in Meg about what happened she explain what will truly happen between husband and wife 'he'll stick his manhood in your maiden area just to get straight to the points... ' ' will it hurt!? '  'it hurt like hell my first time but Christopher isn't a clod he will be gentle '
But even now her words haunt me how do I know it won't hurt I'm so small I even checked the other night with a finger and it still hurts
Sighs..
I didn't tell Chris that I know now but I could tell he felt how uneasy I was when he kissed me goodbye on his way to Viewpoint since we can't meet before the wedding. It was then that he said 'it will all be OK I promise I love you'
I feel so weird not speaking to him through the thin wall that stood between our rooms and tonight he isn't even here
Sighs...
Finally my eyes drifted shut.

I woke up to yells from Meg and the duchess "its time to get dressed! "  they shouted in unison "get up Kaylee we only have an hour left." the duchess said "An hour" I said jumping up "why didn't you guys wake me"
"you're always the first person to wake we thought since you aren't up you couldn't sleep, and plus it is a trend for the bride to be fashionably late, but I know neither of us wants Christopher wetting his pants right? "
"Right. " I said
"Then let's get busy! " Meg yelled

I hurriedly had a bath and got dressed in the white garment the dress flared from under my bosom to the floor into a tent with glitters over the dress. My hair was done up in a bun with streamers to the back and side of my head the veil which was borrowed from the duchess was pinned to my hair with a blue clip.
I ran through the list of things I needed to have on; something old: the veil, something new : both my dress and my shoe, something borrowed : the veil is also borrowed, and something blue: what do you have that's blue I thought ahh the clip along with my blue diamond earrings. All set then. I picked up the bouquet as the duchess and Meg walked in "oh my God you look so beautiful! " the duchess shrieked "I'm not gonna cry" Meg said sniffing I smiled at their love and hugged them both "I love you guys ;duchess you are to me the mother I've never had and Meg you are the world's best sister knowing I have you two I feel complete ".
"Where is the jewel?! " the duke came in sounding so excited, he was to give me away "ahh there you are dearest you have Christopher sweating in his boots and I can see why, you look so beautiful. "
"Thank you so much.." I said chirpily as the duck smiled...
"Now let's get a move on  aye mi lady we Dont want Chris there to think you're having second thoughts now do we..?" He asked smiling
I chuckled thinking 'by God we most certainly didn't want that'

Since last night I kept thinking back to the days I thought Chris was oblivious to my existence and now oh how strange it was that he breathed his love for me everyday. I have yet to return the favour, but that's because it doesn't feel right. But in a few hours I'll be his and he'll be mine for all eternity and nothing can stop it not even my mother and Brenda I thought smiling.
Finally ...'I can hear the bells ' I whispered inwardly.