Family / 5sos Fan-Fiction

chapter seven.

a lot happened the last weeks.
5sos was touring all around Europe and the next stop is America.
Calum and I decided to be friends and only friends. Well I decided to be friends. I think he wanted more but if we were a couple and he was away for so long, it wouldn't work.
Because I can't come to America with them.
My moms boyfriend got really ill. The doctor says it could be cancer. I never saw him as a dad, but I want to be here for him. So I decided to not go to America.
I had to make some really hard decisions the last weeks.

I'm texting the boys everyday, but they don't have that much time, which I totally understand, but it makes me really sad.

Today my moms boyfriend came back from the hospital. They say he's getting better. That's the only thing that makes me happy at the moment. I really miss my brother and my best friends. Well I don't know what Calum is for me...

My phone ringed.
,,Hello? Who's this ??"
,,Heeeyyy Hanniiu! It's calcal hereeee."
,,Calum are you drunk ?"
,,Noooooo"
,,Well I think, you are."
,,Hannii, I neeeed to tell you something!!"
,,Okay Calum, what's up?"
,, I love you."
I think I blushed. I wanted to say I love you too. But he's drunk, maybe he's just joking.
,,No you don't, you're drunk. Where are you Calum ?"
,,I wish I was, I wish I was beside you!"
,,CALUM! Where is Michael?!"
,,I don't know, but we don't need Michael. The only thing I need is you, hannii "
,,Calum. When you wake up tomorrow you won't remember anything of this."
,,I WISH I COULD WAKE UP
WITH AMNESIA!!!"
,,Well... You are."
,,Oh oh ! Michael wants me to go sleep! But he's never gonna catch me! Bye hanniiu ily honey!!"
Then he hang up.

What the fuck was this.

I'm gonna call Michael.

,,Michael ?"
,,Yeah?"
,,Is Calum okay? "
,,Yeah he's drunk"
,,Why is he drunk ??"
,,He said he misses you so much so he has to drink to forget you."
,,oh Uhm, tell him I miss him too, tomorrow."
,,I will. Good night "
Then Michael hang up.

It's not night in Germany, it's noon in Germany and I have nothing to do.
It's Calum's birthday next weekend. I wish I could visit him... Actually... I can... 
But I don't know if I want to...
Does Calum really love me? Do I love him? I don't even know who I am anymore.
A few months ago I was a girl in Germany, having fun with her friends and not worried about anything.
And now I have a brother, 2 new best friends and one boy who' says he loves me. I don't know what to do...

-5hours later-

my phone ringed and i see i have a new message.Its from calum.

,,Hey Hanna, Im sorry for what happened last night. I hope everything is okay between us. Even  tough I don't know what i said yesterday, Im very sorry. Miss ya xx''

Am I supposed to tell him what he said?

I just texted ,,Miss you too, see ya soon.''

I gotta get him out of my mind.