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Ch.15 Figuring Things Out (End)

Katelyn's P.o.v.

I knew he was following me,tears in his eyes,but I didn't want to see him like that.I know I'm mad at him,but I can't do that to him...to myself.I started running.Fast.I ran farther then I had before.I wasn't being stupid of course and running in the street,waiting to be run over,but I feel like I should just end it.Like I have nothing to live for anyway,but I didn't stop running.I was sure to out run him at this speed,but I could hear him in the background of all noises of all noises.Huffing and puffing,but I wasn't stopping for anything.

I finally reached the pier and decided to take a brake.He was far behind now.I was now,myself on the verge of tears.I broke down into a huge sobbing mess,crying my eyes out into my knees,the tears soaking through my jeans.I heard a distant "Katelyn!Please stop!" call for me.But I felt paralyzed,like I couldn't move.I just kept crying and crying.I knew all the stuff I said about him wasn't true,about him treating me like any other girl.And I do feel like he's the one.But I-I can't think straight!I looked up seeing as Travis was only a yard away.I stood up,tears still in my eyes,and started walking slowly towards him.I wiped my eyes as I walked.I want to say sorry,that this was all my fault,but at the same time,I don't want to talk to him.

Now,only a foot away from him,I stare into his bloodshot eyes.He'd been crying like me.He didn't move.But I did.Slowly I started walking,but them rushed into his arms,hugging his neck crying on his shoulder.He hugged back happy that I was okay."I-I'm sorry!I hate to admit it,but this was all my fault!I shouldn't have assumed something like that!None of this would have happened if I didn't assume something like that!I know-"I started,but Travis interrupted."Katelyn none of this was your fault.I'm just glad you're okay!You scared me,I thought you left me,forever."He said,dragging the last word on."WHAT!?HOWISTHATEVENPOSSIBLEICOULDN'TLEAVEYOUEVENIFITRIED!I-"I started,but my words vanished from existence. Now wasn't the right time.I couldn't tell him this."Katelyn are you okay?"He asked quietly.I just nodded,and kept crying."I'm so sorry."I whispered.We stood there,hugging.I didn't want to let go.I wasn't ready to let go,it felt like forever sense I felt his safe arms around me.His warm body against mine.I couldn't leave his side.This is what I thought I had with Jeffory,but I was wrong.He was different.It's weird,he was sweet,kind,caring,yet I fell for a dorky,pervert like Travis.It's impossible to believe,but it happened.If Travis left me,I'd be left hopeless,I'd feel like there was no purpose,because if he left me,I know it's weird,We're not even a couple,but I feel like we're more.I don't know why it happened.I wish it didn't. But I can't stop it unless I had the evil queen (Not evil anymore) from 'Once Upon a Time' rip my heart out.Then I couldn't feel anything,but that couldn't happen,and I can't leave my friends.Just my friends.

2 Days Later

I've been more distant from Travis.I know it's weird.I say I love him,I feel like I love him,but I just don't know.I want to stay away from him to keep my emotions down.WHAT IS HE DOING TO ME!?I USED TO HATE HIM,SLAP HIM,PUNCH HIM!And now...I'm crying over him!I felt the tears form in my eyes.Right now all I can do is meditate,concentrate on only that.Nothing else,but I can't.He's probably so confused.He comes over a lot,looking for me.I just decided to finally just stop.I'm not getting anywhere.I can't concentrate.I heard a knock on my door,and slowly walked up to it.Putting my hand on the doorknob,I asked quietly"Who is it?" The voice I heard made me anxious."It's me." He said.I waited a minute to open the door.

2 minutes later,I finally opened the door by an inch.I saw his emerald green eyes stare at my icy blue ones."What is it?"I asked quietly,my eyes trailed down to my feet.My hands on the bridge of the arch (The doorway)."I just wanted to check on you.You haven't left your room for two days.You haven't talked to anybody except Aph,and most of the time,it's just to ask her to get you something."He said.I didn't answer that.I couldn't...because it was true.I hadn't talked to anybody,I only used Aph to get me something because I was to babyish to leave my room."Can I come in?"He asked.I looked at him with devastated eyes,then slowly opened the door.He slowly walked in (Yea yea I know,you guys are probably like "WHY IS IT IN SLOW MOTION!?I WANT TO SEE SOME ACTION HERE!" And I'm over here like "MEEP!")He walked over and sat on the bed.I closed the door and sat next to him,still facing down."What happened Kate?"He asked.I put my face in my hands,giggling a bit."Don't call me Kate."I said.He smirked."There you are."He said calmly."Listen I was wondering if you wanted to go out to the movies tonight,get your mind off of everything.What do ya say?"He asked."You mean like a date?"I asked."Not exactly.Like a 'I'm gonna go with my friend to the movies to help her stop thinking about her problems' if you call that a date,then sure,but for now-"He started,as he got a wig out of his purse."Um,Travis?When did you get a purse,let alone a wig?"I asked,kinda freaked out."I just got these today,but no,I am not 'Travis',my name is..........'Barbra'"He said,putting on the brunette wig."Travis stop it.Seriously I'm fine if we can just go together,you being,you."I said,pulling off the wig."Wait,so you're telling me,I bought these for nothing?BUT THIS COST $12.99!"He said.I nodded."Aw,I'm so sorry,I'm sure you can wear your wig for some other women someday."I said,sarcastically with a sarcastic pouty face."*Sniffle* R-Really?"He asked,playing along.I just laughed."S-Sure!"I laughed.He started to laugh with me."Okay,but seriously we need to get going.It's almost 6:40 and the movie starts at 7:15 so we need to go."He said."What movie are we seeing?"I asked."It's a surprise."He said.