Just A Dream

Chapter 38

*Katie's POV*

I woke up at 8.

Harry was still asleep, since we slept yesterday at 3 am in the morning. We talked a lot.

Finally we can go back home today. Seriously I've been waiting for this day to finally come.

I sat by the window and kept staring at my hand..

There was a cut.

Okay, yes I did cut and nobody did know anything about it. When Louis was here, I used the car keys and yeah well, I did cut. I can't even explain how I did that because I don't want to remember that. I really regret what I did.

I don't know how I'm going to tell Harry. HE will see it I know.

I cried while looking at the cuts, letting everything out.

"Katie?" Harry slowly opened his eyes.

I quickly put my arms down and wipped away the tears.

"Harry, good morning baby." I walked to his bed.

I mean it was just a cut, just a scratch.

"What's that mark, Katie?"

"What mark? Oh yeah it was a cat."What a stupid excuse.

"And what's all the bracelets for?"

"Baby it's fashion haha"

Another tear.

Another scream.

"And why is there water in your eyes?"

"I had a bad dream, Harry."

But it's not just a tear or a cut or a lie.

It's "just one more" then I'll die.

"Why did you do that?" A tear appeared on his face.

"Harry, look. I.. I couldn't help it. Look now you are here and I am next to you. Can we please forget about that for a moment? I won't do that again. I did that because I'm weak, very weak. I hate myself for doing this, but I'm telling you. I won't do that again. Never again."

He took my hands and wipped away my tears.

"Next time you'll have to cut for me either."

This is like him stabbing me in the heart.

"You are weak, Katie, We can't stay like that."

"NOOOOOOOO" I screamed as I woke up next to a sleepy, now awake, Harry.

"Katie what happened?"

"You won't. We'll stay." I looked him in the eyes.

"Baby what happened? Stay where?"

"Are we still in the hospital?"

"Yes, we're going home today. Louis and Eleanor are going to pick us up."

"I . I had the worst nightmare." I breathed, still finding it hard. "You was about to i don't know leave me because I cutted or something and I'm sorry Harry, but"

He quickly looked at my hands to check if everything's okay.

"Thank God, you're okay. I never will, becuase I'm sure you will never cut."

"I won't, Harry. Trust me." He took me in his arms and rubbed my back.

"It's going to be okay."

One hour later, as we packed everything and were ready to go, Louis and Eleanor came in.

"Harryy, I missed you so much." Louis hugged Harry, smiling so big.