I don't know how to love. I guess I'm just realizing that. I can't even love myself. I hate myself, so much. I wish I was different, I wish I was better, I wish I like him, that way she would talk to me and believe me when I said things. I wish I was like him that way she'd love me. I wish i was like every guy that has ever had her attention. I just really wish I wasn't me. Anyone else but me.
But the world doesn't work that way huh? I'm stuck being this worthless fuck. And you want to know what the funny part is? I fuck around so that I can feel better about myself, because in all honesty the only time someone ever wants me around or appreciates me is when I'm fucking them because that's the only time I'm useful.
