Stuck Stuck (RECONSTRUCTING)

Ten - Juniper

It seemed the whole entire Earth was glowing, all that was staying still was Cassidy as she stared at me with eyes larger than the sun. I wanted so badly to just dig into her skin and rip away her flesh. Wouldn't it be such a rush see what's really inside this girl? I mean, plus she sort of deserves it, I had lost my temper but at least I tried to make even with her.

There was no stopping now, Dad was staring at my intently, egging me on silently to slit this girls throat like a pig. Right as I took a step forward I suddenly faltered, losing my buzz that was clouding my judgement. It was then that I realized tears soaked her face and the men Park and Arnold had taken care of probably weren't breathing anymore.

I couldn't do this, take another life? Already so many had been lost. There was no way out now, I had dug myself a hole.

"Dad," I said with a shaking breath. "Can I do it alone? I want to take my time...."

Would he buy it? I wasn't sure....

He grunted and shifted Cassidy in his hold.

"No, but I'll leave Park to keep watch. Hurry it up." He spat, tossing the knife carelessly to me and shoving the girl into the dirt. Park ran forward and scooped her up, mimcking the way Dad had held her.

I didn't look back, but the pocket knife that had been given to Park was now open and coated with fresh blood, no way was that guy breathing back there.

The footsteps they took back to our trailer that wasn't even 50 feet away were deafening. I couldn't move until I heard that door slam.

"Park.." I started, staring at him with pleading eyes. "Can you just look the other way for a few minutes? I really want to get personal..."

For some reason I couldn't see me tricking him at all, he seemed to know the game very well. He gave me a laugh that shook his whole body.

"You must think I'm really stupid, once I leave you this girl is going to magically get free, isn't she?"

I looked down, hiding my shame. Ashamed of what, though? To be a good person? Ha.

I lifted my gaze to his eyes, they were now steady and I was determined.

"That's none of your business."

He smiled, a grin stretching far on his face. I didn't like the looks of it....

"Then here, let me make it easier."

He released her, opening his arms wide away from her. She didn't move at first, just coward and stared at us. I gasped as she took off, not only had he let her go, he held me back from lunging for her, regretting my decision.

"Dad! He'll be so-"

"No he won't, we couldn't stop her."

I still went to go after her and he wrapped my arms behind my back, pulling me close to him.

"No, you wanted to let her go, live with it."

I looked behind me at him, we stared silently at each other, my stomach doing flips. What was this feeling inside of me- Nerves? It made me uneasy, having his eyes bore into mine. I could feel his breath on my mouth, he was too close. I waited for him to finally let me go, no way we could catch up to her now anyway. He just continued to hold me. Suddenly, without warning he yelled, never breaking eye contact.

"Rob! Come quick, hurry!" He still looked at me and eventually when I heard Dad and Arnold come running, I dropped my gaze and he let me go.

"What the fuck?!" He boomed. I started to explain, stuttering and tripping over my words when Dad struck me so hard I went tumbling to the side. I hit the ground and groaned, my left side of my face on fire. "Arnold, get that bitch!"

Faster than a bullet he took off, though I doubted he'd get her now, unless she was stupid enough to rest. Park leaned down quickly and helped me up. I clutched at my face, trying to hide the agony the hit caused.

"I knew it, I fucking knew you were incapable of this. God dammit, why did I trust you?! You know what this is going to cause right? She's going to get free and then our faces will be everywhere! Fuck!"

He slammed a fist into a tree and paced around, scaring me. I've seen him upset but usually he tries to hide it in front of me.

"Juniper, you ungrateful fucking brat! Seventeen fucking years of my life I wasted on you, making sure you'd have something better than those parents could give you. This is what you do to repay me? Set me up to go to prison, or even be put to death? I should have fucking killed you."

"I never asked you to take me!" I screeched out. I could feel my eyes start to sting.

He stopped pacing about and looked at me, frozen in a his stance. I leaned back slightly away from him, scared he would hit me again. Suddenly he softened up and slowly walked over to me, one arm out. He wrapped it around my head and pulled me close to him.

"Juniper... I can't take much more. For the love of God, I can't. She's going to tell, and we're fucked... So I might as well say this now." He sighed, and I stood awkwardly in his embraced. Never once have I been touched like this. "I'm sorry."

Those words set off something deep inside of me. Lit me up like a christmas tree.

He was sorry? You're not sorry unless you're wrong, and he's never wrong... Right?

I needed to make him proud, because this right here proves he loves me..... It proves it.

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Kay, so I know.. "WHAT THE HELL?! IT'S BEEN LIKE THREE MONTHS!!"

I know, I'm so sorry! My laptop broke, but I just got my mom's old desktop. Will be updating more! (:

Sorry, again!

And sorry for errors! My computer is sooo slow, and glitchy. Spell check works, but when I scroll the page sticks and doesn't work properly. -.-