Beautiful Disaster(Justin Bieber fan fiction)

Part 10

Dear Diary

Hey it's me again. I feel so disgusting I always would get mad if Mac cheated on me but I just cheated on my man. I can't take the guilt I'm dealing with right now. I can't even put a smile on my face. This is the man that got me off the street and took care of me. Why did I do him this way........I've got to confess with what I did......it's burning a hole in me.

Love Ama

I woke up in Justin's arms. My high wore off now I was just drowsy. I turned I saw Justin doing something on his phone and playing on his ps3. It was so cold in the room, maybe because I was laying in the bed naked. I looked under the covers and Justin was still naked to. "Sorry baby too just fall asleep on you like that, I was just so tired", he kissed my forehead and said it was ok. I checked the time it was 1 in the morning. He put his game controller down along with his cell phone and lay down on my chest. He kissed my shoulder blade. "Was it that good, you didn't even last two rounds baby", he said laughing. I shook my head smiling and I scootched down some and turned over so we would be eye to eye.

I grabbed his face and kissed his lips. He smirked. I got up from the bed and I went in the closet to look for a bathing suit. I put on my bathing suit in the closet. I walked out the closet and climbed on Justin, I winked and told him to meet me in the pool. I went downstairs to get some wine and glasses and I headed out to the pool and started pouring my glass. I was scrolling through my phone and sae messages from my new friend Ashley and Atifa. They were girlfriends of Justin's friends they were nice people. I looked up to see Justin swimming to my side. I put my phone under my towel cause I didn't want him to splash it.He popped out the water and started tongue kissing me....not that I was complaining or whatever. In the mist of us kissing I almost forgot why I was mad at him earlier, he bought lingerie and a dress for someone else. I pushed him back, he looked annoyed and shocked at the same time."Justin why did I find a dress and lingerie in your car?" He looked surprised and confused by what I was asking, I folded my arms."I bought that for you baby, now kiss me" he said as he tried to pull me closer and cup my face. I knew he was lying, shit he even knew he was lying."Why the fuck are you lying that wasn't in my size baby" he scratched his head, he replied" Yes it is baby your a size 5" I was started to really get pissed off. "No I'm not I'm a 3, you know this you even took me to get measured babe" I said as I pointed my hand towards him. He looked and grabbed his neck, his cheeks were bright red and he clenched his jaw. "I did get you measured.....I'm sorry baby there's just some much going on and I forgot and I'm sorry baby, truly and honestly" he came closer to me. I believed him, absolutely, I was just hoping that he cheated on me because of what I did to him. I deserve being cheated on, I'm a horrible girlfriend.

We made our way to the Jacuzzi and it started getting hot. We were literally attacking each others face. We were stripped from our cbathing suits to, my legs were wrapped around him but he wasn't inside me. He had his hands wrapped around my neck as he was biting and sucking on it, Justin was an animal tonight. Every kiss made me think about what I did was wrong. Every touch made me think about what I did was wrong. I know I'd break his heart if I told him the truth but he would accept the fact that I didn't lie to him. I know if I lied I'd make myself hurt even more. So I thought strongly and I did what's best for me.

""I cheated Justin" I said as he was kissing my neck and holding my body. He stopped and ask me to repeat what I said. He took his hands off of me and just looked at me. He scrated his head and sat on the bench that was in the jacuzzi. He rubbed his face," Why did you do it?" he asked as his face was in his plams. I felt myself tearing up,"Baby I was just being dumb I'm sorry" I said as I moved in closer to him and held him and started kissing his hands and face. He pushed me off of him and climbed out the jacuzzi. I climbed out and chased after him, naked and all. He was putting his towel around him and he went upstairs into his room as he slammed and locked the door. I knocked on the door several times"Baby I'm sorry, I'm so sorry please baby please". He opened the door with sweats and a hoodie on and pushed passed me and started walking down the sreps. I heard his car keys jangling in his pocket as he walked down the steps. "Baby just listen to me, wait up Justin". It was too late he already walked out the front door and slammed it. "What the fuck did I just do?" I thought to myself.

Whoa Justin's fucking pissed. Do you think Ama should have told the church or should of kept the lie a secret.  Write a comment of what you think.