Monophobia(The Fear Of Being Alone)

Loyal

"What are you doing Carter?" I whimper quietly as his knife is inches away from my throat

"I'm sorry but I have to, I'll lose her if I don't"

"Its okay I understand. Just please take good care of Aliyah for me." I say as tears slowly travel down my pale cheeks.

" No problem. Aliyah and I will be perfectly fine without you here." He said as his knife got dangerously close to my throat. " Please remember that I do love you but I need her."

" I know. I love you too." I stutter quietly as his knife slowly makes its way across my throat.

As the life spills from me and the world turns black I realized that I did exactly as I say. I just died for the ones I love to be happy.

~ I wake up abruptly and feel tears running down my pale face slowly. I have been having the same dream for three days straight and every night I wake to my tear stained face. The words "Alliyah and I will be perfectly fine without you here." replay through my brain and make me shutter. Honestly there seems to be a bit of truth behind those words.

"It was just a dream." I try to tell myself, but the tears were still flowing without any sign of stopping. I stared blankly at my wall until finally sleep came over me.
...

"Melody, Carter Is here to pick you up." I hear my mom yell from downstairs

"What?" I scream. I had just woken up and Carter was already waiting for me outside.

"Mom, I just woke up. Tell Carter to wait a minute while I get ready."

I quickly throw on a My Chemical Romance shirt and a pair of jeans. I run to the bathroom and begin to brush my pastel blue hair back into a ponytail. I stare at my reflection for a minute and then quickly ran out of the bathroom before the self depreciation can settle in. I stumbled down the stairs to see Carter sitting on the couch .

"Goodmorning sleepy head." Carter said while taking a bite out of his poptart.

"See Yah mom" I said as I headed towards the door.

"Wait aren't you going to eat something" Carter said with a hint of concern.

"Ugh fine" I said as I grabbed a pop tart and slammed the door.

"Now hop in the car. because of YOUR lazy butt we might be late." Carter said jokingly.

"Oh shut up. We still have an hour." I responded with a playful slap on his shoulder.

"Okay, true but... I don't know if we have time to get you a coffee like I was going to." He said in a jokingly innocent voice.

"There is ALWAYS time for coffee. " I said with a jokingly grave look.

"Fine, we will get your stupid coffee you addict."

" I'm not addicted to coffee!" I said defensively.

"Surrrre." he said in that adorably annoying voice of his.

After we had picked up my coffee (which was delicious incase you were wondering) Carter randomly started blasting the country radio.

"Carter, what the hell? turn that crap off and put in Panic! or something."

Carter continued to sing his heart out to Carry Underwood.

" You don't even like country. This music is making my ears bleed."

"Oh lighten up a bit would yah" Carter jokingly said followed by a laugh and a smirk.

"Carter?"

Suddenly, Carter turned the music up so loud that I couldn't hear myself think and started dancing to the song 'She Thinks My Tractors Sexy' and singing along with a couple of joking winks.

"Carter, what the hell are you doing." I said between laughs.

" Just trying to make you laugh. You don't really laugh often."

"well, you succeeded now turn this stupid song off." I said as I calmed down from my laughing fit.

"why? doesn't it...Turn you on." He said in a stupid voice and threw his leg up on the dash.

"No, it doesn't now get your leg off the dash and keep driving you little hoe." I said as I laughed and shoved his leg off of the dash.

"You're no fun" Carter joked as he ran his hands through his blonde fluffy hair.

"I'm very fun and you know it."

"Yeah, you are pretty fun."

"See. Now park somewhere I have to get to class."

"Okay, lets go." Carter said. He seemed a lot more enthusiastic than I did.

As soon as we got to the front door I started to get anxious. School was my least favorite place in the world. I was really good at school , but I have to go through it alone. I only have two friends, Carter and Alliyah. Carter had almost no classes with me and Alliyah goes to a different school. So, I basically have to go through school alone.

"It'll be okay." Carter said softly.

"Yeah, I know."

"I'll see you later." Carter said pulling me into a hug. I was surprised he was even able to hug me without his group of crappy friends teasing him or me. "Love you." He said as he pulled away from the hug.

"Love you too." I said and I felt my nerves calm a bit. We meant it in a platonic way of course but it was just great to know that someone in this world loved me

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I will be okay today. I will be okay.

Okay I know this was crappy and the beginning may be confusing but it will be explained soon I promise :)