Monophobia(The Fear Of Being Alone)

Admitting

Her hand slammed my shoulder into the wall and I felt something hard pressed  against the side of my head. I felt a lingering pain in my shoulder but I was too focused on the piercing brown eyes that were staring into mine.

"Melody Carson. My wonderful bestfriend. its so sad to think  of you being gone but I have no other choice." I heard Alliyah's voice whisper in my ear.

"Allliyah what the Hell are you saying?" I  responded as I tried to shift away but her grasp was too strong.

"This will be hard but it will be fun. Watching the life spill out of the biggest problem I ever had. You." She said as she laughed huskily in my ear.

"A-Aliiyah, please." I began to say but was interrupted by the hard object being pushed harder and harder into the side of my head. It took me a moment but I soon registered the painful object as a handgun.

"You were so loyal and so sweet. Its a shame you had to be such a burden. If you weren't maybe I wouldn't want to do this."  Alliyah hesitated and that was when I could see her eyes. They were still beautiful when they were full of hate.

"I love you Ally." I said as I knew it would be my last time saying it.

"I loved you too Melody."  Alliyah responded shakily. She loosened her grip and put her hand on my face. She kissed my cheek as she always did and then gripped my shoulder again. "Goodbye Melody Carson."  she said as a little smirk hinted at her face.

Bang. The last sound I heard was the shot of a gun and my ears ringing. As I drifted into my doom I saw Alliyah's eyes shed a tear but not a bit of regret in her face. Suddenly my world went black and everything was silent.

...

I woke up with a beating heart and crying eyes. I was alive. I was very much alive. I began to shake and nothing made sense.

"It was just a dream." I heard a voice whisper. I was so freaked out from my dream that I couldn't understand what was happening. I began to sob. I pictured Alliyah's last kiss on my cheek and the way she said 'I loved you'. The thought of Alliyah not loving me anymore left an aching pain in my heart and it filled my entire chest.

"Mel, it was a dream. You're okay now." I heard the voice say quietly. I now registered the voice as Carter's.  I realized I had fallen asleep still holding Carter. I suddenly felt his hands move to my face to wipe my tears. "I've got you now. Don't worry." He said in a calming voice and he wrapped his arms around me.I burried my head into his neck and finally felt myself calming down.

"I love you Carter." I said and at this point I don't even know in which way I meant it

"I love you so much Melody." Carter said sleepily. I then realized how late it was and how exhausted Carter must be. I decided to stay silent to let him fall asleep.

...

"Wake up sleepy head." I said as Carter's blue eyes slowly opened.

"Good morning Mel, How are...." Carter stopped and his eyes widened. He quickly removed his arms from around my torso and sat up.

"Oh. um Carter I was crying last night so you were just comforting me." I said as my face became red with embarrasement.

"Oh yeah. Sorry that was awkward of me." He said uncomfortably.

"This was it. I just screwed up the best friendship I've ever had. He hates me. its all my fault." I thought to myself. Carter suddenly got up and I could hear him get a bowl of cereal ready. That freaking cereal addict. I decided to sit in the living room and try to figure out how to fix all of this.
I heard Carter walking into the living room and I immediately tried to pretend that nothing was wrong.
"Melody...." Carter took a long hesitant pause. I had never seen him look so serious or distant. He seemed kind of empty with out his huge goofy smile.
" I'm sorry Carter, I didn't mean to make you..." Carter stopped me by placing a small kiss on my forehead. I was so confused. Does he like me? Was he just being nice. I had So many things I wanted to say to Carter right now but I feared if I began I would never stop.
"Melody Carson. I'm not a person of words. I'm no Mr.Darcy and I'm sure as hell no Augustus Waters. I'm not the kind of guy who can say how he feels and win your heart but what I am, is in love with you. I'm In love with your smile and the way you get giggly late at night. I'm In love with your hugs and your loyalty. I'm love with the way You light up when you talk about something you like and I'm in love with the way You blush when you feel awkward. I'm In love with you Melody Carter. And you can tell me right now that you don't feel the same and shatter all my hopes and confidence and it will be okay. Because if it's my heart that needs to be broken, I would want it to be broken by you." Carter breathed in deeply and I think I saw slight tears forming in his eyes.

"Carter King, you may not be a man of words but I think you just won my heart."