Betrayed By Mr. Billionaire

Chapter 16

Love isn't sweet like those poets say. Love has thorns which pierce your heart and the wounds often bleed at the slightest touch.

He followed me outside his place. I ignored him and He pulled my hands I ended up on his chest. "Who am I to you? When you are alone you need me. When you cry you need me. The shivers you have are because of me, my existence matters to you a lot". The grip he held on my arms with his fingers was hurting. It was raining too much. As if sky was making our meet a memorable one this time. "Tell me who I am to you?".

"You are like the rotten petals of rose in a long lost dairy." I pushed him away parting his hands from my arms.

"The dairy I loved once but now it is an old one, as old as a history for me. I craved that rose once you know craved as if it was a drug for my life but now I no longer crave for it. I ended up here coz I felt that might these petals can provide the solace to me again but as always they failed. You failed." I walked away pulling my car out of his parking.

Last night again was one of the difficult nights I went through in my life. Debate was going on between between my mind and my heart. I ended up with my heart and mind together. Because the conclusion is that I am still into Arav unfortunately I still love him that what my heart says and I am very guilty about this and I will move on is what my mind says.

It is an old saying that one cannot get over there first love that is what is happening with me. I am not getting over him, his closeness still effects me and he is right no one can give my body such effects the way his mere gaze do to me.

It took 8 months for me to get out of that depression and if this time something happened between us I am sure he is going to be the death of me.

Why we always fall in love with a wrong person and if the person is right the situation turns out to be wrong. I like happy endings were the boy and girl are happily ever after. But one cannot deny the fact that the legendary stories which are memorable are not with the happy endings but with the mishap.

People fall in love some fall too deep but some still made themselves strong and sail. I fell in love, the love I never craved for. I was happy before him. I was always contended with my life. But my beautiful life has some other plans for me.

I fell in love; I fell too deep to even get out of it. His cravings increased day by day I wish I could have controlled myself. His smile, his eyes the way they passed shivers in my spine is the most pleasurable thing I have encountered.

He is and he was always like a drug to me. The more he comes close the more I crave for him. Even every single moment when I deny that I dont love him I fall even more deep for him.

I think I should learn to accept realties over my denial. I have to face this shit. I have to face my feelings. Even if I love him it is of no use coz I am left with 0% energy to face another betrayal or to face guilt.

I am going to confess everything in front of Abhi. I will not marry someone on the basis of hiding things.

I am dropping a text to him so that we can meet at the nearest coffee place. I will sort this guilt out or else it will take my life.

Sitting on one of the chair in Starbucks turn out to a great change in my life, the aroma here is my favourite. While sipping my coffee, I saw Abhi entering the shop. He smiled at me and I tried my best to pass the smile.

"Umhhhh so I heard you are not filling the case against your father" he asked pulling a chair by my side. I nodded sipping the coffee.

"Thats wonderful" he said with a smile and I am trying to collect words.