Just in Time-Redvacktor X Reader {COMPLETED}

Ch. 10-So Bad, So Fast.

3 months later...Sorry it's so long a timeskip so quickly, also beware. Some graphic content, if you're triggered, you have been warned. You can skip to the bottom where I do my outro and fill you in while being not-so detailed! Cuz I care fo u! ^.^, but if you do read this chappie.)

Maddys P.O.V

I remember, 3 months ago, we told the gang that we were dating.

I remember, 3 months ago, I was happy.

I remember, 3 months ago, we finally announced to our fans that we were dating. (A/n: Ali and Barney already told their fans, gah! I didn't want to ruin this with my stupid comment. I'll leave now.)

Then it all came crashing down.

Everyone started hating. Not at my videos, but at me directly. Every single video I'm in. Even the other channels that I don't even own. You can't find one positive comment about me.

'She's really ugly. I'm really happy you're only using her for fame.'
'I don't understands how you're dating her Red! She's a monster!'
'God. She's rude, crude, ugly, and thinks way to high of herself. Total package huh?'
'Jesus, why you even alive? Go back to where the big mistakes live!'
'She's not even funny...'

It just tore me down. I don't know why. I've been dealing with hate, but it was literally right after I announced me and Red were together! I've been cutting.

Flashback-----

I'm coming home from a day at work alone, Ali went to hang with Barney. The minute I shut the door, I fall against it and cry, putting my face to my hands I sink to the floor.

"I can't take it anymore. They don't know what I fucking go through."

Standing up, I climb the stairs to the bathroom and I grab my spare razor and smash it. Grabbing one of the blades I slide it against my arm. One cut, two, five, ten. A girl who seems so happy cries in the middle of her room every night. A girl who seems to handle herself so well bloodies her arm everyday. A girl who's life looks so perfect from the outside, is breaking on the inside. I collapse against the bathtub, repeating what Adam said to me that day. 'You have to be strong, don't let the hate get to you, ok?' I glance at myself in the mirror. Collapsed against bathtub with a bloody razor in hand.

"But I'm so tired of being strong."

Flashback end----

They don't notice the scars yet. And I hope they don't. Pain is my escape from everything. But I hope they do, but I'm scared to go to help because they would reject me anyway. Right now had to keep my 'happy' composure right now, because Adam, Red, Barney and I are playing Minecraft Do Not Laugh...how appropriate right? But thank god it'll end soon. And I'm not up, so I'll stay silent. Like usual. Because there no need for a mistake to talk, right?

"Alright Sky, get ready to laugh!" Red yells. My once very supportive boyfriend, now turns into a clueless one. I drown it out, escape to the back of my mind as I pull out my phone. Google, medical website, online tests...

Depression Quiz.

Honestly I hope I bomb the test. I'm happy, right? It's just a bump in the road, right? It's not important... Right?