Dear Old Friend

Dear old friend,

There may be reasons why you don't care.
Maybe it's the way my hair falls on my shoulders like heavy boulders I felt the weight of our freindship, or maybe the way I laugh like a child innocently nothing when you looked at me. Or maybe you never cared in the first place.

But it's not fair. You don't get to not care.
We have shared so many tear drops together. You cant just throw them away like a piece of old paper. You made me feel important but all thoes "moments" we shared I guess they were nothing

You know all of my weird obbsesions and I thought I knew yours but I guess not because you don't care anymore. Or let's just say you never did.

My feelings have left my body evaporated in the air, now just remnants of what used to be our friendship and I guess you can't see. Blinded by your own narcissism but it dosent matter to me.

I'm done playing games. I thought you cared about me. But I was a fool to think anyone could love something as disgusting as me.

You played with my feelings and that hurt.

I guess I'll move on. I'll do my best to not care.

But it's not fair. You get to move on happily. Because you didn't know about me or my feelings. It's not fair that you didn't care in the first place.

So spare me the pity oh wait you dont pity me, that would imply that you had feelings. So we can go our separate ways. But please remember. The time we had together and how we will never have that again.

It's not fair that I loved you.

But dear old friend,

It hurts me to say that I don't care.

Your feelings are irrelevant to me. Because you broke mine. And I guess that's fine.

Because dear old friend,

I really do care and I'm trying to be brave but please don't pity me because it was my fault anyway and for that I'm sorry

Dear old friend,

I love you.

And I'm doing my best to not care.