Afraid To Fall In Love

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I went home and felt so betrayed. Antanga mo Astrid! Bat ka kasi nagpadalos dalos. Tignan mo nangyari!

Tumakbo ako sa kwarto ko. Dun umiyak.
I though he like me too kasi ang bait bait niya sakin. Thoughtful. But it wasn't. He never treated me more than his bestfriend.

Umasa ka kasi astrid! You should set a limit. Yon tuloy you went beyond the limit. Sumobra! Sigaw ng isip ko.

Tanga na kung tanga basta naamin ko naman na sa kanya. It shows my bravery and honesty.

Pero napahiya ka don!

Umiyak ako ng umiyak ng may kumatok .
"Astrid, can I come in?" Ate said.

"Okay ate." I nodded.

" I saw you crying while taking the stairs. What's the problem? " concerned niyang sabi.

Hindi ko sinabi ang totoong dahilan instead it about mommy.
"Ate. Bat umalis si mommy? She said she loves us. "

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko." I dont know too, baby sis. It happens so quick though I dont know the reason too."

"Ate. May isang araw noon, nakita kong nag aaway sina mommy and daddy. Nabanggit nila yung 'bastardong anak'. Di ko maintindihan ate."

"It's okay but we have to find mommy. Alam kong babalikan niya tayo. But I was worried of dad too."

Pinatahan niya na lang ako sa pag iyak.
Hanngang sa nakatulog ako.

Ilang araw ang nagdaan di ko pinapansin si Tyler. Nahihiya ako. As in!
3 weeks ng ganoon.

Sa ngayon naglalakad ako sa hallway. Papunta ako sa classroom. Mamaya gusto kong mag sorry kay Tyler.
Pero nakita ko siya sa may upuan sa ilalim ng puno. Linapitan ko siya.

" Tyler. " I softly said

Lumingon naman siya.

"Why? " in a blank tone.

"Ahm.. I just want to apologize. For what I said few weeks ago."

"It's fine with me as long as you will not feel that again. Don't you ever." He said.

Pero tinatagan ko parin ang loob ko.

"Pero magkaibigan parin naman tayo diba??"

"Ahmm. Astrid."

He called me Astrid! ? Really? I thought he wants to call me chantelle? Kasi espesyal lang daw ang tatawag sakin non. And siya lang daw at ang daddy.

Pinilit kong magsalita.

"Bakit?"

"I guess it's better if we don't so much attach to each other. Its better if you keep a little distance on me. I find it too clingy. You know?" Diretso niyang sabi.

What did he just say? Pinapalayo niya ako?

"We're special diba? Friends? Were bestfriends." Ulit ko.

" yeah we're friends. But I want you to stay away from me. Keep distance as I said."

Gusto kong umiyak. Nakakagago siya.

"I'm sorry." Sabi ko na lang at tumakbo.

Now! He totally rejected the whole part of me. As her bestfriend and a special one.

I felt so empty. Ang sakit. It's what you call REJECTED FRIEND ZONE. Exactly.

"Mommy?" Nagpunta siya sa bahay.

"Anak. Sumama na kayo kay mommy. " yinakap niya ako.

" yes. Ma. Sasama ako." I said.

"No. I don't want to leave daddy. He'll be lonely here. " ate said.

"As.. we should go bago pa tayo maabutan ng daddy mo. "

Lumingon siya kay ate.

"Chane, anak. Mag ingat ka. You have my number to call in case you need my help or anything. Just take care. Pls."

" I will mommy." Ate smiled.

Then we leave. It's so sad pero eto lang yung paraan.

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A few months later sinundo ni mommy si ate para pumunta sa ilocos. Yes. Im here at ilocos. Taga dito si mommy.

And I met our kuya. College na siya.
We so much bond. Siya pala yung sinasabi ni daddy na bastardong anak ni mommy. Imbes na magalit ako, Hindi. Napakagaan ng loob ko sa kanya.
We do use his motor to joyride. Basta! Masaya.

Pero dumating yung di ko inaasahan . Si mommy at ate ay naaksidente.

I was so devastated then. Sobra! They both died. Yun na yung dahilan kung bakit ako nagtanim ng galit kay daddy.
Nagtanim kami ng galit kay kuya.

Pagkatapos ng libing I decided na sa ilocos parin tumira. But when I got to 1st year college. Nagpunta si daddy samin nina lola. He was begging. Bumalik na daw ako sa bahay. He was really sorry then.

Really was.

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Via

Sorry talagang lame tong Chapter na to kasi pinagisipan ko pa kung lalagyan ko ng flashback 3 so yun

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