The Reasons To My Disappearance

Chapter Four: Broken And Beaten

Then:

People Don't Know :
People Dont Understand The Life I Lived.
How I Was Beatended & Raped Nearly Killed.
Watching My Sister Die
Lord Left Her Side
Have People I Love Out Here Committing Suicide
I'm Just Left With The Burden My Eyes Dried Out.
But They Have The Audacity
To Ask Why I Cry.
~Kameron H. Williams Aka Killa Kam🌹
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It Was A Saturday Night I Was Texting Thalia (Ex-Girlfriend)
Until I Heard A Banging At My Door It Was Around 8:34 P.m "Unlock The Fucking Door" He Yelled Banging On The Door. I Quickly Got Up And Answer The Door.
"Yes Sir" I Said Terrified Not Looking At Him. He Was Like A Giant Hovering Over Me. " "WHY IS YOUR ROOM DOOR LOCK!!?" He Yelled
"LOOK AT ME WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU" He Yelled Grabbing My Face. Hot Tears Start To Run Down My Face. I Hate Looking In His Eyes I See My Refection A Scared Little Girl.
"I'm So-Sorry" I Studdered Scared Shaking.
"Shut The Fuck Up. I Don't Want To Hear It. Answer My Question You Got 5 Seconds ." He Barked At Me.
Trying To Think What To Say. 1...No Answer...2 No Answer...3 No Answer...4 No Answer...5 No Answer... *Slap* He Hit Me Hard Causing Me To Fall Back To The Floor. I Can Feel A Mark Appearing On My Face. He Walked Out The Room. I Was Laying There Crying On The Floor. He Quickly Came Back With A Long Ass Belt. He Used It Every Time We Did Something That Didn't Please Him.
"You Gonna Have To Learn" He Said Slowly Wrapping The Belt Around His Hand Getting A Tight Grip.

"I'm Sorry...I'm Sorry...I'm So Sorry.." I Cried

But He Kept Coming Closer And Closer. I Was Shaking Lord Knows How Bad I Was Shaking.

"Turn Around" He Said Coldly

I Was Still On The Floor. But I Turned Around Like I Was Told. I Know If I Don't I'll Die.
He Grabbed Me By My Hair Getting To Endure This Pain.
"When I Tell You-" *Whip* "To Fucking Listen" *Whip* "I Mean It " He Yelled At Me Hitting Me Harder. He Then Went Crazy With It Hitting Me Everywhere. He Grabbed Me To My Bed " Take Off Your Clothes Now". I Hate These Whipping I Hurried Up And Took Them Off.
*Whip* "Dont Lock "*Whip* "That Fucking Door Again" *Whip* "Do You Understand Me?" *Whip* "Yes...Yes...I Understand I Understand..." *Whips* He Begin Hitting Me Everywhere. He Kept Hitting Me I Pleaded For Him To Stop It Hurt So Bad. This Why I Hated My Life. He Hit Me So Hard A Cross My Face I Screamed So Loud On The Top Of My Lungs And Grabbed On My Covers Tight. I Cried So Hard Not Only Because He Was Beating Me Badly But Because No One Would Save Me.
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Its Now 4:56 A.m
I Still Dont Want To Get Up. Here I Am On My Bed, Just Butt Naked Doing Nothing At All. I Hear My Phone Notifications
My 1st : Wyd Baby Girl
Me: In Bed.. Why
My 1st: Just Wanted To See You I'm Omw In Hour.
I Just Didn't Reply. I Can't Think Positive Because All My Mind Is Doing Is making Things Worse. I Finally Took A Deep Breath And Slid Out Of Bed. I Winced In Pain. My Whole Body Hurt I Slowly Got A Towel That Was Near By Me. I Walk My Way To The Bathroom Wincing Out In Pain. I Turned On The Shower
I Looked At My Fight Sitting On The Side Of The Bathtub. I Just Can't Look At Myself In The Mirror. I Was Ugly And Chubby. As The Water Was Ready I Slowly Got In The Shower. Slowly Putting One Leg In And Then The Other. I Lay Back Slowly In The Tub And Begin Cleaning Myself. After Several Mins Passes I Hopped Out The Shower. I Accidentally Turn Around And Saw Myself In The Mirror And I Began To Cry My Eyes Out. I Can't Understand Why My Uncle Do This To Me. I Fell Down Onto My Knee's And Cried Harder. I'm So Broken, So Used . What Am I Suppose To Do? Why Am I Alone? What Made God Make Me Go Through This?