My teacher Luke skywalker

Chapter 5: a new beginning

I was so glad Luke wasn't mad at me because that would've made me throw myself overboard the ship. I was also so glad I comfort him after he comforted me at the bar. I was also glad I could make him smile and laugh. This was the most amazing day of my life with him except for a couple goof ups it was perfect anything except a few weeks again when my mom died in a ship crash and the  they after when my dad killed himself by crashing his ship. I was so miserable I could  barely function. I was thinking about killing myself and I cut myself with a sharp piece of glass. But meeting Luke has given me hope and I can't wait to begin training with him. Force forbid he is so beautiful and amazing. But he probably doesn't like me back. Who could love a girl with scars? No one. I walk off the ship with Luke and he grins really big and says "welcome to your new home" "Luke it's beautiful so much better than tatooine" I say,looking around and I admire the scenery for a while until Luke tells me it's Time to eat. "That's ok I'm not hungry" I tell him. Truth is I'm so fat I've been starving myself. "Ok are you sure?" Luke asks,his voice and gave filled with worry and concern. "Yeah I am" I tell him and he takes me on a tour of the place it's so beautiful and cozy. "This is where.." Luke starts to say but I gently interupt by saying "Kylo used to.." Then Luke interupts me by saying muttering stay. Then he closes the door and I look around there are now pictures of Kylo I guess Luke threw them out or burned them or moved them to a different room. I lay on the bed the bed of someone who caused this amazing man pain and suffering. I felt so guilty. All of a sudden I really felt nauseous I thought about going to Luke but I didn't wanna bother him and I threw up on the floor. IM SUCH A DUMBASS LUKE IS GONNA FREAK THE FUCK OUT. I quickly clean up the mess and sit on the bed sobbing. I need my glass. I dig into my pocket and pull it out I manage to make some big bloody gashes until the door opens and I really quickly Throw the glass under the bed.