My teacher Luke skywalker

Chapter 7:ive messed up(clarissas point of view

NOOOOOOOO WHY?!?!!! Did Luke have to discover my secret!!! He probably thought I was worse than Kylo!! And I didn't want a droid to treat me!!! I liked my scars and I was used to taking care of myself!!! Why did I have to go and fuck everything up?!!!! "Hello I am a medic droid I will now treat your self-inflicted injuries" "NO DONT TOUCH ME!!!" I screeched "miss please hold still" the droid said. "LET ME BE" I screeched then the droid grabbed my arm and I violently began to pull my arm from its grip. The droid kept pinning my arm and I kept screeching and resisting. Then, I heard sobbing from the kitchen. Luke?! What the fuck have I done!!! Then all of a sudden I felt sleepy and screeched "what the..." And fell asleep. When I woke up I saw Luke and the droid hovering over me. "What...h....h..a a ppp n e d" I stuttered. "You kept resisting the treatment so the droid had to put you sleep in order to treat you" Luke said calmly his voice and face filled with concern and sorrow. I hurt the man I love!!!!! I deserve to fucking die!!! "Clarissa please follow me to your room we need to talk" he says gently and I flinch and say trembling "am I in trouble?" "You are not in any trouble I am just concerned with you" he says gently and trembling I take his hand and we walk upstairs without talking. Luke keeps comforting me by hugging me and rubbing my shoulders. He opens my door and we sit on the bed. "Clarrisa please explain why you harm yourself" Luke says gently and softly without sarcasm and anger. Taking a deep breathe I say "well after my mom died and my dad killed himself I felt worthless horrible dead inside and I started..." "Harming yourself with the glass?" Luke interupts gently and calmly. I nod and start crying then I start sobbing "I deserve it I'm ugly,stupid and mess everything up" Luke gently grabs my head,i flinch but he whispers it's alright in my ear and ca down. "Clarissa listen to me you're beautiful funny and have potential you do not deserve it understand"? Luke says half sternly Half caring. "I have. Destroyed the glass." He finishes. "You...you...why?'!?!!! No Luke fuck you!!!!" I screech. "Watch your language and I had to I don't want you to hurt yourself" he says again half angry half caring . "You don't hate me?" I ask,trembling and sobbing. "Clarissa I do not hate you is that why you did not tell me you felt this way? You were worried about how I would feel?" Luke asks gently. I nod. Luke sighs and says "it has been a long day we will begin training tomorrow" Luke says hugging me,and I hug back tightly. "Night Luke" I say softly. "Nigh little star" Luke says softly. Then he tells me I can use any of the clothes he put in the closet for me and he leaves. I sigh looking around the Empty room which had no trace of Kylo. I tremble and smile a bit "little star" that's a cute nickname I love it. I open the large closet put on a nightgown and instead of crying myself to sleep like I've been doing for weeks I instantly fall asleep thinking about Luke.